Sinful Mates Chapter 119: One hundred and nineteen

“You okay?” He asks and I can see something flicker in his eyes, something I can’t decipher. I nod.

“You know he can take it away?” He says making my eyes snap to his.

“What?” I ask, confused.

“Whatever happened that haunts you, Thaddeus can make it stop, make you forget” He says.

I wanted to forget what I would do to forget, to erase that year from my memory.

“How?” I ask.

“By telling him what happened, he can erase it all” Ryland says. I shake my head; I can’t do that. I can’t let anyone know. The thought alone disgusts me and makes bile rise in my throat.

Ryland stands up, his entire body radiating anger and his eyes darken, his canines protruding, and I feel fear creeping in. “You’re not the only effected by it, you realise that don’t you? You need to either deal with it or let him remove it. I can’t keep feeling what you feel, with no fucking answers Evelyn. Every emotion you feel, I feel. Your fear, sadness, your shame and your guilt, your fucking exhaustion. I feel it all and it is infuriating that I can feel everything and not know what is causing it, they can feel it too through me. You hanging onto whatever it is that happened to you isn’t just destroying you. You are turning our fucking bond into a curse” He yells at me.

I stay silent, and eventually he storms upstairs. “You think feeling it is bad, try fucking reliving it” I scream back at him, anger bubbling through me.

Ryland freezes, a menacing growl escaping him before he is suddenly standing in front of me.

“I didn’t ask for this, you all brought me here, you brought it back. I was fine till you fucking walked into my life” I scream at him before I hear movement upstairs again, hear Thaddeus growl making my eyes snap to the stairs. Ryland breathing heavily and I can feel rage inside him. This was their fault they brought it back, I was able to live with it. They showed up ruining everything.

Thaddeus appeared behind me, making me jump, the intensity of his gaze making me flinch away from him. His eyes like storm clouds, his fangs protruding as he steps toward me. “We can’t help you if we don’t know what’s wrong” He says, his voice emotionless and cold. I suddenly wished Orion was back, fear consuming me as the lights flicker, something I know as his anger before he erupts. No sooner than I thought it, Orion walks in and I instantly run to him. Anything to get away from Thaddeus. Orion grips me tightly, worried for a second as he takes in the room. I notice he is saturated, his clothes dripping wet making me step away from him as I feel the coldness seep into me making me shiver.

“What’s going on?” He asks, looking at them. Thaddeus calms slightly before pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration. “Ask her, you can deal with her. I am going to bed to try to sleep” He says before going upstairs, Ryland follows before stopping next to me. His eyes soften as he looks down at me before he pulls me to him.

“I’m sorry” He whispers, and I can feel Orion's eyes on us. Tingles spread all over my body and I relax against him before placing my hand on his chest. He feels warm and as much as I hate to admit, he feels safe. They all do yet touching leads to memories and I reluctantly pull away. Ryland sighs before walking upstairs. I walk back to the couch and flick the TV on.

“You were gone awhile” I tell him, and he nods before dropping a bag on the bench. He looks tired, even though I know he doesn’t sleep. “I know you’re hiding something, but whatever it is, we won’t judge you for it, Evelyn. They only want to help, and you keep shoving us out” He says before rummaging through the bag. He walks over, placing a bottle of pills in my hand.

“I need to shower, and you need sleep. These aren’t helping you” He states before walking up the stairs leaving me with my thoughts. I look at the bottle before getting up and placing them on the bench. I can’t take anymore, not without the risk of overdose.

My clothes were wet from Orion, deciding to go change. I walk up the stairs and rummage through the cupboard before finding another shirt and slipping it on. Hearing the shower running and see light coming from under the door in the bedroom, casting shadows throughout the room. I open the door, stepping in before sitting on the sink. Orion has his back to me, but I know he heard me come in because he speaks.

“Go lay down Evelyn, please” I feel tears brim at his words. He sounds annoyed with me, making me feel annoyed at myself for being weak. Opening the door, I step out intending to go back downstairs. Thaddeus rolls over, his hypnotic green eyes glowing as he watches me, making me freeze. He tosses the blanket back and I think he is going to get up until I realise, he wants me to hop in with him. I look toward the door and turn toward it, about to go downstairs, then I stop before looking back. He is still watching, waiting to see what I do, and for some reason I feel drawn to him like a moth to a flame.

“Please, just sleep. We won’t let anyone hurt you” He whispers. He says that, but how safe am I sleeping in a bed with two monsters. Yet I always feel safe no matter how much they scare me, they feel safer than my mind does. Walking over, I climb in and feel him pull the blanket up. He rolls on his back before closing his eyes, his bare side touching my arm sending sparks up it to my neck making me relax slightly. I sit there for a few minutes and hear the shower turn off, making me sit up on my elbow looking at the door. Thaddeus shifting slightly, making my eyes look down and I see he is watching me closely. I lay back down, putting my head on his chest. He takes a breath in and I feel him relax before I feel his hand rubbing my back, my eyes getting heavier as I fall asleep.

Orion POV

Walking out of the bathroom I slip into the walk in, Evelyn’s scent is strong in the room and I quickly chuck some close on before going to walk out when I notice something move out of the corner of my eye on the bed. Walking over, I feel relief flood into me when I see Evelyn is asleep. Thaddeus green eyes staring up at me, and he shrugs, shocked himself. He moves over, pulling her with him and making room for me. I lay next to her feeling relaxed. Her racing heartbeat and frantic emotions have had all of us on edge. Thaddeus the most because he hasn’t fed and I could tell he wants to mark her, Evelyn in his arms he has relaxed, and I know it’s because she is allowing him to be close to her.

Thaddeus is usually a man of few words, he usually takes what he wants without question or permission yet the last few days he has been on edge wanting to force her to tell us, but each time Ryland and I have held him back. He doesn’t want to scare her, but it’s killing him not knowing. Once they fall asleep, I walk downstairs before heading to the library. I sit for a few hours reading, trying to consume my mind with anything other than Evelyn and my mates. Hours ticking by and the sun comes up. I stay quiet as I walk upstairs, not wanting to wake them; I know how much they need sleep, but boredom and silence are killing me. Laying on the bed again. Evelyn moves and Thaddeus’ grip on her tightens, she snuggles into him and I drape my arm over her and Thaddeus. Nothing felt righter than having them all in the same bed, so close yet I also know it won’t last.

Evelyn will wake, and everything will come back. Whatever it is will make her plummet, by her feelings we have a rough idea but couldn’t understand her guilt. Praying that sleep finally helps her, helps her mind clear of whatever it is. When I was in the city, I sent a message to Amara. Thaddeus will be angry when he finds out, but he will forgive me. He always does. Amara is his one of his weaknesses. His little sister brings out a protective side of him, just like Evelyn does. Only she knows what he is like and usually he distances himself from her, going years without speaking to her. Sometimes I feel his jealousy over her, jealous that she is the good one. Thaddeus try’s being good, but everything he touches turns to dust by the time he is done with it. Destroys everything and he implodes on himself. He never feels the guilt of his actions, sees the repercussions of his destruction, just moves on destroying everything he comes across. Looking for something. He doesn’t even know what it is he is looking for, but I felt the urge to find it leave him with Evelyn by his side. This is the longest we have stayed home. Usually we last two days max before he has us searching and moving from City to City and country to country, leaving destruction everywhere he goes.

Two broken people finding each other. This will either be the best thing that happens to them or worst and most destructive thing. Unfortunately, not all things broken can be fixed, no one can go back and change the past but maybe the future? I hope they can change the future, Amara always said nothing good will come of Thaddeus if he can’t find his way back, that our future is uncertain. She once said that he would be our downfall, but she never say Evelyn in that future. She was a blank space that didn’t fit in her premonitions and I was curious to know if she could see her now. See her apart of our world or would her demise be at his hands.

Being pulled from my troubled thoughts when I feel her waking, feel Ryland stirring and a feeling of unease settling over him. Thaddeus eyes opening as he peers down at her with a frown on his face. Her eyelids moving as she watches her dreams play out. Ryland sitting up, he looks over Thaddeus his eyes resting on Evelyn. He brushes her hair from her face, and I feel her relaxing under his touch. One word slipping from her lips in her sleep.

“Lana”