The 5-Time Rejected Gamma And The Lycan King Chapter 102

After Lucianne had gotten that last book, the bookstore staff got a moving cart to transport all of Lucianne’s picks from the locker to the counter. The staff even helped transport the books into Xandar’s car. After thanking them, they left La Librairie and headed to a restaurant for dinner.

In the car, Xandar thought about how good Lucianne was with children. She seemed close to many kids in her pack, and she even knew Juan’s son well enough to know what he liked. She’d only met Russell twice and could already tell the child’s preference. He wondered if she ever thought of being a mother herself, and Xandar was contemplating on how best to ask his question. “Lucy?”

“Hm?”

He took a breath before he began, “What I’m going to ask is probably going to be…” he sighed before he continued, “…too personal for this early stage. Just tell me it’s personal if it is. I’ll understand. Uh…” he ran his hand through his hair while the other remained on the steering wheel before he asked, “Do you imagine having your own kids someday?”

Lucianne snorted before she said, “Xandar, from how nervous and uncomfortable you look, I thought you were going to ask about the number of people I slept with in the past.”

Xandar thanked Goddess he stopped outside the restaurant already when she said that. The number of people she had slept with in the past? He was quite upset and even jealous that she had sexual relationships with someone else, probably before all the mate-bond rejections. Wolves only start feeling the pull of the mate-bond when they turn twenty. Many wouldn’t wait to get into a relationship despite knowing that their partners may not turn out to be their mate.

Xandar knew that making Lucianne feel bad about her past relationships would just be unfair to her. They hadn't even met that time. She was very attractive now in her late twenties, imagine what she was like in her teenage years. He himself might have drooled over her.

Lucianne took in his saddened look and said, “Xandar, just to be clear, I’ve never slept with anyone. And yes, I did imagine having my own kids one day but I…”

He smashed his lips on her even before she finished speaking. He deepened their kiss with each brush. Lucianne pulled his face away and asked in concern, “Xandar, you seem a little scared. What’s wrong? What happened?”

He whispered breathlessly, “I love you.”

“I know, Xandar. But what’s wrong?” Lucianne asked. She was still not following.

Xandar still felt insecure so he took both her hands in his and pecked kisses on her fingers before he said, “It’s just…For a moment, I thought you had a serious past relationship and I wasn’t sure if I was able to compete with that. I just…don’t want to be less than perfect for you.”

Lucianne then muttered to herself, “Oh Goddess, that joke went too far.” She then took her hands from Xandar and cupped his face as she apologized, “Xandar, darling, I am so sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. How it came out was entirely wro—mmph”

Xandar’s lips were back on hers. He didn’t want her apology. He just wanted to be the one Lucianne would ultimately choose to be with, the mate she would ultimately choose to make her happy for the rest of her life. Xandar only let go of her lips when Lucianne needed air. He buried his face in her neck and sought comfort in her alluring scent.

After catching her breath, Lucianne asked in worry, “Xandar, you okay?”

“Mm.” He responded as he continued inhaling the air from her neck.

“Are you sure?” Lucianne was still not convinced.

Xandar’s nose nuzzled her neck as he whispered, “I felt a little of the insecurity you mentioned last night. It sucks. And I doubt what I felt was anywhere close to what you had to handle. I don’t know how you do it, baby.”

Lucianne was even more lost, “Xandar, why would you have to feel insecure? Being in your position, you’d never had anyone implicitly telling you or even suggesting that you’re worthless. And I told you before that no one sees me the way you see me. There is zero need to be insecure.”

He whimpered and buried himself deeper into her neck as his arms wrapped around her waist, “You’re wrong, Lucy. Lots of people see you that way. You just don’t see them. But I see you this way the most so you can’t pick someone else, okay? Please don’t pick someone else. It’s not fair.”

Lucianne groaned in annoyance, and her hands gently removed his head from her neck for her frustrated eyes to lock with his fearful ones. “Xandar, what are you talking about? You’re my mate. Why would I be picking someone else? I’m with you. I’ve never been with anyone intimately before Sebastian Cummings. And we both know how that one ended so…”

“Did you two kiss?” Xandar asked.

Lucianne shook her head, “We never got close enough for me to be comfortable to share that kind of thing with him. It was difficult to fully trust him and his family. And before you ask, no. He didn’t smell me like how you’ve just done either.”

“Did he kiss you at all?”

“Xandar, this really isn’t necessary, it’s…”

“I want to know.”

Lucianne sighed, “Just my hand. You know, like the usual gentlemanly kind of gesture. It really isn’t anyth—” Lucianne gasped in utter shock at how Xandar was kissing her hands to the point of almost sucking them that she stopped mid-sentence. She had to snatch her hands away from his tight grip before she held his head up to face her.

When their eyes locked, she said in a low, firm tone, “Alexandar, I’m with you. There isn’t anyone else for me. I don’t see anyone else, okay? Calm down. There’s no need to feel insecure. I’m with you, okay? I’m with you.”

He smiled at her response. The fear in his eyes diminished. Xandar then tried to move up to her face to kiss her on her lips but she held his head in place as she said, “We should get inside before it gets too late for dinner, darling.”

“But I want a kiss.” He whined like a child.

Lucianne smiled, and pecked a kiss on his lips before saying, “There. Now, let’s go, my King.”