The 5-Time Rejected Gamma And The Lycan King Chapter 18

"And then," Lucianne stopped to take a breath,

"I don't know what was going through the Moon Goddess's mind but she paired me with a Lycan for my fifth-chance mate. You already know this one. He's Sebastian Cummings."

She shrugged, "We met at this meeting last year. He took me seriously at first but then all these lies and inconsistencies started popping up. When it came down to another Lycan and me, he never chose to defend me, even if I had the facts and they didn't. I didn't think much of it because I just thought that was how most Lycans are brought up — spare the Lycans, punish the wolves. "

"But the last straw was walking in on him sleeping with another Lycan when he told me he was going to be with his father discussing state affairs."

She swallowed a lump in her throat before she continued, "After that experience, I went home and prayed to the Moon Goddess every night to stop giving me a mate. "

"I told her that I would do anything but I didn't want to experience another mate bond. I didn't want to meet or see another person being bound to me like that."

She took a breath before uttering, "I have never prayed or even asked for a mate in my life. And after mate number five, I decided that I've had enough of the emotional roller coaster, and begged our Goddess to spare me."

She pressed her lips together in discomfort before she said in almost a whisper, "When we met last night, all I could think about was what could I have possibly done to garner so much hate from the Moon Goddess that she could not even grant me my only wish. But from the start, you were different." Their eyes locked.

His eyes were already glistening as he imagined the pain she felt over and over again. Despite the tears, his expression was hard as he thought about the injustice that had befallen Lucianne, who has done nothing but serve the werewolf population with nobility and selflessness.

She continued, "When you looked at me at the meet-and-greet, I couldn't see any hesitation or disappointment in your eyes. Even now, I still can't find it. You seem so sure, so certain that the mate bond is not a mistake. And when I brought up the matter about rejection, you seemed genuinely hurt and confused, not contemplative or relieved like the mates from my past. "

"I thought, as a Lycan, you'll feel disappointed about being bonded to a werewolf, like Sebastian was. But you aren't like him. It's almost 24 hours since we met and I haven't seen you upset over being with me yet. Sebastian's happiness only lasted two minutes before disappointment crept into his eyes. He just seemed like he was accepting me after that. He was never really truly interested in what I am."

She chuckled and shook her head, "I don't know why I'm bonded to you, of all people and species. I don't even understand why I'm being bonded again. Sometimes, I feel that the Moon Goddess gave me my life just to use me as a joke over and over and ov..."

Xandar cut her off and said in a gentle tone, "No, don't think that." He lifted her body effortlessly and placed her sideways on his lap and kissed her deeply on her forehead before holding her close to his chest. "The Moon Goddess knows you are meant for great things. She knew before any of us that you have the makings of a true leader, a Queen. Just being a Luna of a pack would've been a waste of your potential."

He kissed her hairline as he stroked her arm slowly and continued, "I've seen the way you interact with and speak to pack leaders and warriors. You stand apart on a whole different level. They love you. Every commendable werewolf loves you and respects you. Our Goddess sees this too. "

"Before meeting you, I wasn't even doing half of the things at this meeting that I've already done since last night. I was never one to be approachable or to get to know my people on a deeper level. But meeting you changed that. Somehow, your existence made me feel that the people deserved a better King, one who saw them, heard them and felt them. "

"You gave me that, Lucianne. It's only been less than a day but I've never taken my subjects more seriously for the past eighteen years until last night."

He pecked a kiss on her forehead and nose before he said, "There's no one more qualified to be a Queen than you, Lucianne. You've already done so much more for the people than I have, than any Lycan or werewolf have. You're already our Queen, even if you don't see it yet."

She smiled meekly as she held back her tears, "It was really nice of you to say all of that, Xandar."

"I wasn't being nice." He said in a serious tone, "I was speaking the truth. You are a Queen, our Queen. It radiates from the way you speak and the way you carry yourself, which probably explains why I don't feel comfortable when I see you bow to me. From the start, it just felt...wrong. "

"I thought it was the mate bond at first but now that I think of it...it's more likely because I'm not worthy to have you bow to me. If anything, I should be the one bowing to you."