Chasing His Wolfless Luna Back Chapter 148: The Name in My Dreams (Part 2)

Thea‘s POV

He was silent for a moment, and I stayed quiet too. I waited for him to gather his thoughts. I could tell he genuinely loved Phoenix, but I could also see that Kane was a sensitive subject for him.

I wondered what Kane had done to piss Sebastian off, and why I'd slept with him. Was it my way of getting back at Sebastian for not loving me? You know, sleeping with someone he disliked.

I wasn't usually a vengeful person, but I also understood that pain and heartbreak could drive a person to do things they normally wouldn't.

"When Aurora came back, I wanted to be with her," he began.

Hearing him say it hurt like hell, but I'd always known this would happen when she returned. I just hadn't expected it to sting this much.

"I knew it wouldn't be good for Leo if we suddenly ended things. We needed to ease him into the idea of us no longer being together. You agreed, and I started seeing Aurora secretly, preparing for our separation."

I watched him intently, hanging on every word. I didn't want him to see my pain, so I hid it behind a mask of indifference.

"You met Kane at Derek's funeral—he saved you. He was one of the cops assigned by the police department to keep order. Threats had been made, and they couldn't risk more deaths."

I frowned because nothing he was saying resonated with me. Where my memories should be, there was only emptiness.

"What do you mean he saved me?" I asked curiously.

"There was another Rogue attack during the funeral. A Rogue got hold of you, and if Kane hadn't lunged at you, you might have died."

Well, he did a nice thing for a stranger. I guess that was our "how I met your mother" story... but where was Sebastian during all this?

Before I could ask, he continued: "I don't know the specifics; I just know you two started dating. Honestly, it made me jealous. I couldn't understand why, but seeing you with another man bothered me. I wanted to tear him apart."

The way his fists clenched was enough to prove this still bothered him a great deal. I never thought Sebastian would be so jealous and possessive of me, so this was completely unexpected.

"I hadn't yet understood my feelings for you, so when you told me about him, I agreed our marriage should be open. It didn't seem fair to keep you from him when I was pursuing another woman myself."

Fuck. Why did it hurt so much to hear him say that? It was obvious he had been ready to throw me away for Aurora. I always knew it was inevitable, so I don't know why it hurt so badly.

As for Kane, I really didn't get it. Had he caught my attention enough that I would bring this up to Sebastian, or was I just trying to make Sebastian jealous? Maybe trying to get a reaction from him.

What was so special about this Kane that he could do what other men couldn't? What was it about him that attracted me so much that we even had sex?

"I was seeing Aurora, and you were seeing Kane, but every thought in my mind was occupied by you," he exhaled, running a hand through his disheveled hair. "Honestly, it was funny. When Aurora came back, I thought you would be my problem like when we were younger. When you weren't, I was surprised. You seemed not to care at all. It turned out I was the problem because for some reason, I couldn't let you go."

Was I really like that? My world had once revolved around Sebastian and Leo. It was strange to hear him say I seemed completely unbothered by him dating Aurora.

"So Kane and I dated for a few months?" I asked.

"Then I must have had sex with him during that time, which explains how I got pregnant. Didn't we use protection?" I voiced my thoughts, completely forgetting that Sebastian was right beside me.

He growled low in his throat, saying through gritted teeth, "Thea, please don't mention you, another man, and sex in the same sentence. I don't even want to think about it."

I couldn't even imagine another man's hands on me, so I kept silent. It was still difficult for me to accept that another man had once touched and tasted me. To accept that another man had once been inside my body was hard.

Pushing those thoughts away, I focused on him and asked the question I was afraid to hear the answer to.

"What about you? Did you sleep with Aurora?"

My heart pounded painfully as I waited for his answer.

Sharp green eyes pierced into mine as he answered, "No. I didn't have sex with her. I didn't even kiss her because it felt fucking wrong."

Yet I had slept with another man. Would he see me and Phoenix differently because of it?

"I'm sorry for letting another man touch me," I said quietly, feeling ashamed.

He gently grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at him. Stroking my cheek, he placed a light kiss at the corner of my mouth, then his green eyes found mine again.

"That's not your fault, never apologize for it. If not for your relationship with Kane, Phoenix wouldn't be here, and I will never regret having that little girl because she has a part of my heart."

This touched me so deeply that I couldn't help leaning in to kiss his lips. I threaded my fingers through his hair, pulling him closer. Our mouths tangled together, and my desire skyrocketed. Fuck, I wanted him so badly.

Without breaking the kiss, I emerged from under the covers and straddled his hips. The evidence of his arousal pressed against my wet center.

My panties were soaked through, clinging to my opening, but that didn't stop me from grinding against his hardness. The moan he let out traveled through my entire body. I swear I could probably climax just from that sexy sound alone.

Nothing made more sense than what was happening between us. What were we talking about before? I was sure it wasn't important, right? When his tongue was in my mouth, his hard length rubbing against my center, and his hands squeezing my ass, nothing in this world mattered more than what was happening between us right now.

I was about to pull off my nightgown when he stopped me.

"No," his voice was firm and restrained.

"Why? Don't you want me?" I asked, confused.

His hardness told me he did want me. Unless his excitement wasn't because of me.

"You're testing my control, Thea." He sighed, "Fuck, of course I want you, but that would be taking advantage of you."

He lifted me off his lap with one arm and set me on the bed. Then he got up and walked toward the bathroom.

"I don't understand," I called after him, making him pause.

He didn't turn around, but he answered: "When I take you, I want you to believe in my feelings for you; I want to be the only one you want, the only one on your mind; I want to be the only one in your heart, and I want you to have nothing but love for me. Only then will I take you and mark you as mine."

With that, he walked into the bathroom, leaving me staring after him, more confused than ever.

What did he mean by wanting me to have nothing but love for him? Had something happened to make me hate him? And if Kane was Phoenix's father, where was he now?