Chasing His Wolfless Luna Back Chapter 63: History Repeats

Thea's POV

"Ms. Sterling, are you okay today?" one of my students asked, her eyes filled with concern.

It had been a month since the Kane situation, and I was still a mess. Okay? Not even close. Painful? Like being mauled by Rogues. Moving on? Hadn't even touched the edge of it.

Every morning I woke up feeling like I was sinking deeper into an ocean of pain and heartbreak. I'd thought I was healing when I was with Kane, but now I realized it had all been a fucking lie I told myself.

His betrayal was like a key that unlocked all those painful memories I'd tried to lock away. All those old wounds splitting open at once, mixing with fresh pain.

I was going through the motions each day like a zombie. The world around me seemed to have a blurry filter over it. I could smell other people's scents in the air but couldn't really feel any emotions. Everyone else had moved on, but I was stuck, unable to break free.

"Just...Thea. I'm fine... focus on your assignment," I answered briefly, turning away to hide my expression.

Another thing—I hated the Sterling surname. Every second it reminded me of my past. I wanted to change it but didn't know what to use instead. Kincaid? But I didn't know them well enough yet. And I hadn't spoken to them since that day at my house.

I turned around, hiding my emotions. Before, I loved teaching. Now it was just another thing that drained me. Every day I came to work wishing the time would pass quickly so I could go home. I wanted to be alone. But Iris and Sebastian kept checking on me, which meant I was never truly alone.

The pups I taught had clearly noticed the change. The classroom atmosphere wasn't vibrant anymore, and my voice had become mechanical and flat. Several students had started skipping class. I couldn't blame them—who wanted to listen to a walking corpse? I just didn't know how to find that confident Thea who thrived in her field again.

*Instead of trying to go back to who you were, why not try to create someone new?* I'd gotten used to that strange female voice occasionally popping into my head. I didn't know what it was, but I treated it as my second conscience, talking to her like I was talking to another version of myself. But was it possible? To create a newer version. One different from that child, that girl, that woman who'd been broken countless times.

The bell interrupted my thoughts. I packed up without even saying goodbye to my students and left the classroom.

I kept my head down as I hurried to the teachers' lounge. I just wanted to breathe for a moment before my next class. Luckily, no one stopped me in the hallway. I really didn't want to talk to anyone.

When I reached the teachers' lounge, I froze. I'd expected it to be at least somewhat empty, but damn, it was packed. I groaned and headed for the furthest seat.

Just then, my phone rang. Seraphina's name flashed on the screen. I'd been avoiding her calls, not knowing how to face these sudden biological parents. Especially considering Kane's relationship with them. I was about to hang up, but my finger mysteriously slid to answer instead.

"Thea? Are you there?" her voice came through the phone, a hint of nervousness in it.

I didn't answer, just breathed softly.

"Please, my daughter, don't shut us out," she pleaded quietly, her voice trembling slightly at the end. "Don't reject me and your father."

I remained silent, even though I wanted to speak, my throat felt like something was blocking it.

"You're our blood, Thea. I want to be the mother I was supposed to be. I know you're hurting, and I want to be there for you. I've already lost one child, please don't let me lose another. Losing you again, after just finding you, would kill me," she begged, crying, which broke my heart.

Tears involuntarily welled up in my eyes. Damn, I'd become so emotional these past few weeks.

"I need time," I finally said, my voice raspier than I'd expected.

She noticeably sighed with relief: "I'll give you all the time you need. But please remember, I love you. Even when I thought you were dead, I kept you in my heart. I hope you'll believe that if you need us, your father and I will be there in an instant."

God, it felt good to be wanted, but I didn't know if I could really trust them. Only time would tell.

"I'll think about it," I answered briefly, then hung up.

I understood her feelings, but I still had doubts. What if they were just looking for someone to fill a void? That's what worried me. Being used, being second choice, just like I was Sebastian's second choice.

Bethany suddenly sat down across from me, interrupting my thoughts. She was notorious among my colleagues for gossiping and always managed to catch me exactly when I least wanted to talk.

"Wow, such a good appetite today?" she remarked with surprise, looking at the food in front of me. "You've been so moody lately, and eating more, just like... well, a pregnant she-wolf."

Though I knew she was joking, I froze in my seat. Her words echoed in my mind like a broken record, and fear spread through every fiber of my body.

"Thea? Are you okay?" Bethany frowned, "You know I was just kidding, right?"

Before she could finish, I grabbed my bag and rushed out of the lounge, not even caring about my next class. I practically stumbled out of the school, jumped into my car, and stepped on the gas, tires screeching against the pavement. Damn. This couldn't be happening. Please don't let it be happening.

My brain was a mess as I ran two yellow lights, speeding toward the nearest pharmacy. The moment I jumped out of my car, I froze—Aurora was walking out of a shop next door, holding an elegantly wrapped package.

"Thea?" she called out, slightly surprised, probably because I looked like a complete mess.

I ignored her and pushed through the door, heading straight for the women's health section. I grabbed five or six different brands of pregnancy tests and quickly went to the checkout.

Back home, I robotically drank three large glasses of water, then walked into the bathroom and started testing. This couldn't be real! I couldn't be pregnant, especially now, carrying that traitor's child!

Five minutes later, when all five different brands showed the same result, I collapsed onto the floor.

"Why? Just fucking why?" I whispered weakly, tears blurring my vision.

Was the Moon Goddess punishing me? Because I was a wolfless freak, so I had to be this unlucky? Going through two unplanned pregnancies? First Leo, and now this. I tried to get up from the bathroom floor, but I just didn't have the strength. I was completely drained.

Thinking back, Kane and I had had one intimate encounter without protection. I'd forgotten to take the morning-after pill, and by the time I remembered, it had been several days. I'd told Kane about it. I thought he'd be angry, but he wasn't. Instead, he comforted me. We both thought it was unlikely I'd get pregnant. I'd noticed some changes, like my period being late, but I attributed it to the stress I was under. I never thought much about my increased appetite because I always ate when I was stressed or upset.

When a sudden knock on the door startled me, I jumped. I didn't want to see anyone, much less let anyone see me like this. The knocking became more urgent, but I just buried my head in my knees and covered my ears.

After a while, the knocking stopped. I sighed with relief, but then I heard the door open. Heavy footsteps came up the stairs, heading toward the bathroom. I started to panic.

I wanted to hide the pregnancy tests, but it was too late. A tall figure appeared in my bathroom doorway.

"Thea?" Sebastian's voice was deeper than usual. I looked up at him, tears flowing uncontrollably again.

"Why you?" I was almost sobbing. "Of all people, why did it have to be you?"