Chasing His Wolfless Luna Back Chapter 166: Doubts (Part Two)

Thea’s POV

"When someone starts a sentence like that, it's usually not something good," Sebastian frowned, staring at me almost as if trying to figure out if he'd done something wrong.

I didn't speak. First, I was trying to calm down from the high of sexual arousal. Second, I still didn't know how to approach this topic with him. I was doing my best to gather my thoughts.

"You're scaring me, Thea," he said, which surprised me and made me laugh a little scornfully.

"Nothing scares you."

It was true. The man standing before me had never been afraid of anything. Had things changed that much? What had happened during the time I couldn't remember that made him fearful?

He stood up and walked to where I was standing. Cupping my cheeks, he gave me a small, quick kiss. It wasn't as intense as the one we'd just shared, but it still made my knees weak.

"Before, yes, but now? Now I'm afraid of losing you," he paused, his eyes looking directly into mine, showing me the truth and sincerity in his words. "I'm afraid of living in a world without you."

His confession caught me off guard. I never imagined I'd hear such sweet words from Sebastian's mouth. But hearing them felt really good, like floating on a cloud.

After all, I'd always imagined how happy I would be when he said sweet things to me. And now it was all happening, and had been since I woke up. I couldn't stop my heart from racing or those damn butterflies raging inside me.

"You'll never lose me, Sebastian," I finally got my mouth to work and say something.

I saw a flicker of doubt in his eyes. He didn't believe me, which confused me. Him doubting and thinking I'd leave him was puzzling. Why would I leave? Especially now that I had everything I'd always wanted and craved.

Unless he took the first step to leave me, I guess I would never leave. I couldn't imagine anything that would make me leave the Sebastian I had now. "Trust me," I told him, holding his hands. "Nothing could take me away from you. Not even death."

His eyes continued to move between mine, as if trying to find the truth of my words in them. After a few seconds, a small smile appeared on his lips, and I knew I'd convinced him. He went to kiss me, but I stopped him. "I won't let you distract me," I said firmly. "We really need to talk."

He nodded, then took my hand. His eyes searched the living room, landing on the baby monitor. Without hesitation, he grabbed it and silently led us to his study.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" he asked once we were in his study.

The door was locked, and I watched him sit down with confidence.

"I want to see Kane," I decided to say it straight out, like ripping off a band-aid.

"Over my dead body." The words were more of a beast's growl than speech.

The calm atmosphere suddenly turned tense. The peace and serenity that had been on him completely disappeared. In its place was a cold mask and anger.

I felt myself shrink back. Normally, I would take his answer like I always had, but something inside me wouldn't let me yield to him. I couldn't explain it, but something inside me had changed.

"I'm not actually asking for your opinion, I'm just fucking informing you out of courtesy," I glared at him, letting him see my dissatisfaction. I knew this wouldn't be easy, but I absolutely wouldn't back down.

"You're not going to see him, Thea. That's final."

"For God's sake, Sebastian, he's Phoenix's father... unless you lock me to the damn bed, I don't know how else you're going to stop me from seeing him."

"That can be arranged."

"You can't be serious!"

I stared at him in shock. The fact that he would actually consider locking me to the bed completely baffled me. He had truly lost his mind, and all this just because I wanted to see my daughter's father?

"I am serious," he said through gritted teeth.

Sighing, I threw my hands up in frustration. "Give me one good reason why I shouldn't go. He's Phoenix's father."

"Seraphina and Maximus can take Phoenix to see him anytime. It doesn't have to be you who sees him."

Was his hatred really that deep, or was it something else? I knew Kane and I had once had a relationship, but that was clearly over, just as his relationship with Aurora was over. So what was the problem? Did he not trust me around Kane?