Chasing His Wolfless Luna Back Chapter 167: Fragile Alpha

Thea‘s POV

"That's not an answer," I snapped, my patience wearing thin.

Sebastian's eyes were like a tempest. Behind those emerald irises swirled an ocean of emotions threatening to pull me under, to drown me in their depths. I'd seen many expressions in those eyes over the years—coldness, indifference, even hatred—but what I saw now was different.

Just then, I caught it. A crack in his impenetrable armor. The real reason he didn't want me to see Kane.

It was the second fucking shock I'd had today.

"You're afraid, aren't you?" I asked softly, trying to process this revelation.

He turned away, but it was too late. I'd already glimpsed the fear in his eyes. There was no taking it back now.

I stepped closer to him, gently placing my hand on his shoulder. "Sebastian, talk to me."

When I felt the tension in his shoulders, I instinctively began massaging them. I just wanted to understand him. This man who'd spent years treating me like I was nothing more than an inconvenience, suddenly afraid of losing me? It was hard to wrap my head around.

After a moment, he exhaled deeply and finally turned to face me. For the first time since I'd known Sebastian, I saw uncertainty in his eyes. "You're right, Thea. I am afraid," he sighed, almost wearily. "Afraid you'll fall in love with him. Afraid you'll choose him over me, the way I chose Aurora over you time and again. I'm fucking terrified that one day you'll wake up and decide I don't deserve you, that I'm not good enough, and you'll leave. And if you leave me, especially for him, I think my heart would fucking break beyond repair."

His words and the broken look on his face brought tears to my eyes. The man standing before me fascinated me. He'd always been so strong, so confident, but looking at him now, I saw vulnerability. I saw that he was just a man like everyone else, not the cold Alpha statue I'd grown accustomed to.

"I've already told you I would never leave you, Sebastian," I said, my voice barely above a whisper.

"But you haven't seen Kane yet. He almost took you away from me right under my nose. If it weren't for his betrayal, I don't think you'd be with me right now. You would belong to him, and I would have been too late to win you back."

My heart shattered seeing the pain, guilt, and regret mingling in his eyes. If I could, I'd take this heartache from him and bear it myself.

If I'd ever doubted whether his feelings for me were genuine, I believed now. Not even the best actor could fake the emotion and vulnerability I saw in his eyes.

"Sebastian, I need you to understand something," I said, holding his gaze. "My feelings for you have always been unconditional. Even when you hurt me, tore me apart, broke my heart, I still loved you. I forgave you because I knew my obsession with you when we were younger ruined your life. Despite how cruel you were, I still loved you, even when I wanted to stop. I'm with you because you're all I've ever wanted, and nothing could take me away from you."

It was the truth. We'd both made mistakes. Some I would regret for the rest of my life. Yes, we were both drunk then, but it was my obsession with him that led me to that bar that night. My obsession that made me think it was okay to sleep with Sebastian even though I knew he belonged to someone else.

He repaid me the only way he knew how. It was wrong, and I hated that he made me pay for that mistake, but I understood. If I'd been in his position, I might have done the same thing. I would have gotten revenge on anyone who took me away from the person I loved. We were both wrong, we both handled things in the wrong way, but I was ready to move forward and leave the past behind. Holding onto it did nothing but hold us back.

"My heart has always belonged to you," I continued. "If I truly loved Kane, or felt even a tenth for him what I feel for you, then despite his mistakes, I wouldn't have left him. I would have been angry, I would have been fucking furious, but nothing would have taken me away from him. Not what he did to me or his imprisonment."

Finally, the cloud that had been hanging over him began to lift.

"You have nothing to worry about," I murmured, stepping into his personal space, wrapping my arms around his waist and resting my head against his chest.

But a small part of me couldn't help but wonder—was that really true?

I pushed the annoying thought away, focusing on my husband in front of me.

"Alright... then you can see him," he said evenly.

I chuckled at his behavior. He was trying to erase his vulnerability, trying to act as if he was allowing me to do this, but we both knew the truth. He couldn't stop me from doing what I wanted.

I let him think he was getting what he wanted and, leaning against his rumpled shirt, whispered, "Thank you."

This unbreakable Alpha had now shown me his most vulnerable side. Perhaps we could never completely escape the shadows of our past, but at least we could face future challenges together.

I was nervous as hell about meeting Kane, but I knew it had to be done, no matter the outcome.