Alpha Aidan's Rejection Chapter 70

AIDAN

　　BACK TO THE PRESENT

　　A flaw.

　　An imperfection.

　　A weakness.

　　My abnormal sperm morphology was a secret I promised myself I'd never share with anyone till the day I died. That the alpha of one of the largest packs in history who had more resources than he could use in his lifetime and many times over, was incapable of doing something as natural as giving birth to a child.

　　Until her.

　　Until Nadia.

　　But seeing Tara with scars of her own, I knew in my heart without an atom of doubt that it didn't change the way I saw her. If there was anything, it was that it made me freaking adore her more, and holding on to my secret was useless.

　　"Tara, I am so so sorry. Goddess, I cannot even begin to imagine the pain and hurt you carried all those months, the years after…" fuck, I almost broke down in tears.

　　How could Kayla be so deceptive?

　　Why did I not fight more for Tara?

　　I failed her. I failed my kid.

　　I left Tara to the wolves in my attempt to save her.

　　"Hey, hey," Tara cut me off from my thoughts, taking my face in her hands. "It's not your fault. Something happened, and it was only unfortunate that I had to be on the bitter receiving end of it. It's over, and now that we know all the truth, we can really move forward."

　　Shit. Dumb, dumb, selfish, and stupid Aidan!

　　We didn't know all the truth. At least, she didn't.

　　'Tell her!'

　　Fuck! Fuck!

　　I couldn't.

　　She wouldn't understand. She would only get more annoyed at me if I told her, and all our progress would be in vain. And now that I knew that Tara had an even more logical reason for running away from Attica pack, she would be disappointed that I did something like this. We couldn't go back to square one.

　　Damnit, Aidan! Tara deserved to know the truth. She deserved that.

　　Squeezing my eyes shut and going against what I would have wished, I opened my mouth to wash away our newest development with each other, but Tara beat me to it.

　　"Aidan, you couldn't have known all of this, okay? I won't allow you to blame yourself for something Kayla and your father were fully behind. I understand now that everything you did and will continue to do was and will be in my and Nadia's interests, so it's okay. I'm happy to have you in my corner now, and I…" she considered her next words, oblivious to the torment going on within me.

　　A small smile lifted Tara's lips as she spoke. "I have everything I need right here. I want to forget about everything else."

　　I was silent. Tara looked genuinely happy. Her smile was lighter than for as long as I could recall, and her eyes shone in the light with hope. Hope for the future, maybe?

　　I understood, because all these years, I lived thinking about how things went wrong and what we could have done differently to fix it. Now, those worries are washed away because the past is well in the past. Or at least, it is for Tara.

　　What I wanted more was Tara's happiness.

　　I was okay with carrying the burden for the two of us until I found a way to solve this.

　　Tara's smile didn't falter as she linked her small hands with mine, caressed the back of my palm with her thumb, and asked. "Can we do that, Aidan?"

　　The softness of her touch sent a thrill through me, and I briefly closed my eyes to savor the feeling. Goddess, I missed this.

　　Taking in a deep breath, I peeled my eyes open and nodded. "Yes. Yes, Tara, we can."

　　"Good," she smiled, and her voice dropped low. "Because now isn't the time for talking anymore. I have missed you, Aidan," she admitted, not bothering to hide the meaning behind her words.

　　I didn't need to pretend too, or worry about making Tara uncomfortable with my confessions, so I admitted my feelings too. "I have missed you too, Tara. So much that it still keeps me awake at night."

　　She held my eyes with her mesmerizing ones, and time went still around us as the tension replaced the room. I saw the moment Tara let go of her control and gave in to the maddening attraction between us.

　　l let her lean in until her warm body was flushed against mine, pressing against my clothes, so that I could feel both the heat from her body, and the pressure from her pounding heart.

　　When a little trace of doubt flashed in Tara's eyes, I shook my head with a low growl.

　　'No backing out now, luv,' I thought.

　　So I took her lips before she could pull back.

　　Ambrosia.

　　The fruit of the gods.

　　That's what Tara tasted like. Even better than I recalled.

　　Tara melted into me with a small sigh—the type that was akin to relief—, causing blood to surge down south of my body, and making me stiff with arousal. Just one kiss from Tara was all it took.

　　I felt the towel slip from Tara's shoulder, exposing her fair skin, and I abandoned all caution as I deepened the kiss. In a split second, I snaked my hand around her small waist and pulled her from the bed to straddle my lap. I pulled back long enough to speak and hear her whine about the loss.

　　"Never knew you were this greedy, baby," I chuckled, my voice thick with heat, and Tara moaned.

　　"Now you do, baby," she teased.

　　Fuck. This woman.

　　Pushing my greed to the side for a second, I spoke. "I need you to tell me if this is okay, Tara," I said. I didn't think I could stop without tasting Tara again, but not if Tara didn't want this yet. "If you say the word, I'll stop at once."

　　Tara growled, rocking her hips back and forth on my lap, so that my already hard as fuck cock turned into concrete.

　　"Shut up and kiss me, Aidan. Let me hear your voice when you talk me through it."

　　"Fuck, Tara. You're stunning," I groaned and took her lips again before red could creep up her cheeks. "I've waited for this for so long, and I'll be dammed if I don't make it last all night, baby," I promised.