Mine to Protect Chapter 110: MISTAKE

*Hazel*

I berate myself for having this thought, but this heat is making me loose lucidity, the more it goes on, the more this need and lust are getting the better of me, the only thing I can think about is getting fucked.

Maybe I can try what Derrick suggested, I can find pleasure by myself.

I lie on the bed, imagining Derek is here with me, his hard muscles, his skilled fingers and mouth. I touch myself to the thought of him, and soon I come with a small scream, pleasure engulfing me, this incessant need retreating a sliver.

The effect doesn’t last long, though, the need comes back stronger than before, making me sigh in frustration.

I touch myself again, and when I am nearly to my pick, the door slams open, Lukas takes a step in and then freezes in his tracks, his eyes glowing brightly, his jaw tight.

I know I should stop, but I am so near, so close, I want to feel that sort of relief, so I don’t stop on his account, I keep pumping my fingers into me, until I come undone with a loud moan, my juices leaking out of me, coating my fingers and my things.

A loud growl resonates through the room, letting me know that Lukas is this close to losing control.

The right thing to do now should be apologizing and covering myself, instead, against any sense of modesty and logic, I spread my legs wider, inviting him in.

He swallows hard but stays frozen, his gaze fixed on my lower regions; I can see the huge bulge which has formed in his pants, and I can’t help licking my lips at the thought of what he’s hiding down there.

When have I become such a pervert? I am not in control of my thoughts and actions anymore. Or maybe, I always had a thing for Lukas, and these are my real feelings manifesting themselves. I feel so confused, the only thing I am certain of, is that I want to fuck, so badly in hurts.

Lukas finally moves, but keeps his distance from me, he takes a few strides to the bedside table, and deposits a box on it, then takes a couple of steps back, like he thinks I am infectious, although I know he’s just trying to avoid taking advantage of me.

I would like to take advantage of him! I want to take care of that hard thing he has there.

Oh, shut it, perverted thoughts!

I am definitely getting crazy; I will end up in a nuthouse.

“What’s that?” I asked him, my voice sounding sultry even to myself.

“Something that might help you,” he replies in a hoarse voice, which makes him sound even more sexy.

I open the package, and stare at its contents in surprise.

He bought me a dick. A vibrator.

I feel my face grow hotter, which is crazy, thinking that I was shamelessly masturbating in front of him just a second ago, but this makes me feel strangely embarrassed.

Lukas turns to leave but I stop him.

“Wait! I’ve never used one of this, I don’t even know how…”

He cuts me off, “It is quite self-explanatory, it is basically the same thing you were doing with your fingers when I entered.”

I shifted my gaze to my lap in shame, unable to look him in the eyes.

“I’ll make sure to knock next time, call me if you need anything.”

He’s out of the room in a flash, and I am left alone with my shame and guilt. I’ve nearly betrayed Derek, and I’ve angered Lukas, I am despicable, the worst person in this world.

I wallow in my self-pity for a while, but then this fire inside me grows to heights I cannot withstand, and I decide to try this new tool Lukas has kindly gifted; I have never used one, but it can’t be that difficult.

The feeling is so much better than my fingers, and for a while it is enough to pleasure me, but it is still nothing compared to the real thing; I want to feel someone mercilessly pounding into me, feel his fingers kneading my hips and breasts, I want the whole love making package.

So, I get up from the bed, with renewed purpose, I don’t bother putting anything on, or cleaning up a bit, I follow Lukas’ scent until I get to a door where the smell is stronger.

I knock, and hear footsteps approaching, he stops at the door, there’s a moment of silence, then he finally opens the door, and his manly flavor nearly makes my mouth water.

I push him inside, not caring about shutting the door behind me.

“Hazel, wait…”

I don’t let him finish, I jump on him, securing my legs at his waist, my arms snacking around his neck, one hand fisting his soft blond locks, and I kiss him hungrily and desperately.

He doesn’t respond to my kiss at first, but he doesn’t even try to throw me off. After some time, his self-control crumbles, and he starts kissing me back with equal hunger, his hands grab my ass and squeeze hard, making me moan out loud.

I start grinding on him, I can feel his member already hard for me through his jeans, and all I want is to take his trousers off and ride him until we both can’t take it anymore.

I am so absorbed in my lust, that I don’t hear footsteps approaching, until a loud growl resonates through the room, and Lukas immediately breaks the kiss and puts me back down on my feet.

I would recognize that growl anywhere, it is the growl of rage of my mate, who’s now looking at me and Lukas from the doorway, his gaze full of hate and disgust. Although he is in wolf form, his emotions are clear, and I know he wants blood.

What have I done?

We all stay frozen in place, the impossibility of this scene taking its time to sink in.

Other footsteps follow, and Damon, Alice and Cindy appear in the doorway, their eyes wide in disbelief. As the situation couldn’t get any awkward.

Cindy is staring at Lukas like she’s seen a ghost, and a word forms slowly on her lips, “Mate.”

Lukas is staring back at her, an expression of pain on his face that makes my world crumble to pieces.

What have I done? What have I done?

I’ve made him look bad with Derek, and with his mate too, when it was all me, I came to his room, I seduced him. It’s all my fault!

I want the earth to break open and swallow me to the depth of hell where I should belong, I am a homewrecker, a slut, a horrible person, and what pains me the most, is that I have hurt my mate, I will never forgive myself for this.

Cindy’s words seem to break Derek out of his state, and he immediately lunges at Lukas, who doesn’t even try to protect himself; in one second Lukas is on the floor still in his human form, with Derek on top of him, snapping his jaws at him, ready to tear his throat out.

I get between them, trying to push Derek off him, which makes Derek even more angry, he snaps his jaws at me in warning.

“It was me, Lukas did nothing wrong, it’s my fault Derek, please,” I try to explain to him, and he snarls menacingly at me, snapping again his jaws inches from my face.

“Alpha, let’s all calm down, you don’t want to do anything you will regret,” Damon says, while approaching us slowly.

Derek stares straight into my eyes, his gazed filled with a hatred I have never seen in them, then emits a deafening growl, and runs like a bolt out of the room.

I stare at the spot he’s disappeared from, my eyes already flowing with tears, making my vision all blurred. I curl into a ball feeling heartbroken, guilty and completely ashamed of myself.

“Hazzy,” Alice says tentatively, while placing a hand on my shoulder for comfort.

But I don’t reply, I don’t have the strength to explain myself now, I just want to be left alone and cry, cry for the love that I have broken, for the mate that I have lost, because there is no way Derek will want me back after this.