Omega Bound Chapter 81

Ayla

Hearing Della's garbage spew from her mouth is enough for me to lose control. What little I had over my wolf and whatever runs through my veins is gone. Seeing Thane reach towards her, whether it was in anger or sympathy, was Aramana's tipping point. 

I can feel the energy thrumming through my veins. I can feel Thane's apprehension through the bond when I yell no, but I can't slow myself down to think about my actions. Anger and pain overtake me. It rises like a tidal wave to overtake me. 

The things she said are just the start of the numerous amounts of feelings and wrong thoughts I have dealt with since I was abducted. I am tired of getting to a good place, to have the pain and guilt crash through me and smother the good. At this moment, I am only focused on Thane's arm and Della's words. 

Before I can blink, I react.

I look within and find my blue thread and yank it. Thane is shot away from us and the force slides him across the floor of the porch. I don't even spare him a glance before I grab Della, tugging the thread and enclosing us in my shield. Della looks all around us, placing her hands up against the shield and pushing, banging on it in an attempt to free herself. It won't work.

"Let me out of here right now you dumb bitch. I don't care if you are the Luna, I am not afraid of you and your stupid bubble. Let. Me. Out!" Della says with such malice and anger. Flashing her teeth at me and growling like I have to answer to her. 

To anyone. 

I can faintly hear Thane get up and start beating on the shield. Yelling something to the effect of "Don't do this" or "You don't want to live with this." 

I am not sure. It is muffled and I am too full of hate to care. I can smell the fear rolling off Della. She says one thing, but her body betrays her. I am sure she can smell the determination and lack of fear in me.

Della's eyes go wide as I partially shift my fingers into my claws. I still need to figure out how this partial shifting works, but I guess as long as it does when I need it to, I don't care. 

"You're not going anywhere," I tell her and I mean it. "I told you; I am not afraid of you so let me the hell out," she yells, but it is pointless. We have already made up our minds. 

My wolf wants to protect, and she only sees one way to do that. My wolf has full control at this point. I couldn't take over if I wanted to. "Your heart can no longer belong to Thane," I tell her. 

"Why?" she asks, brows furrowed, but her anger is starting to tick up. I grab her right shoulder and dig my nails in while taking my other clawed hand, ramming it through her ribcage, pulling out her still-beating heart from her chest cavity. 

"Because you no longer have one."

She takes a few agonal breaths as her eyes roll back into her head and her body becomes a pale gray color and she drops to the ground. Her heart still beating in my right hand. 

I quickly drop it on top of her and pull on my blue thread again, letting down my shield. I stand there, staring over her deceased body. Satisfaction coursed through my veins. Aramana is satisfied that she protected her mate, her pack.

I don't know how long I stand over her staring before a slight touch to my shoulder has me jumping back and thumping into Thane's firm body behind me. He slowly starts walking around me carefully, like he is trying not to spook a wounded animal, and stands in front of me, completely blocking Della's body from my line of sight. 

I look up to his eyes and where I thought I would see anger, I see only care and gentleness.

"Ayla, I need you to come back to me, Little Wolf. I need to get you inside. You need to get your wolf under control now so we can go in and clean up. Get something to eat and some rest, okay?" 

Thane asks very slowly and calmly. His voice washes over me like silk, and warmth pulsates through the bond, bringing me down from my heightened senses and making me feel safe. I can feel Aramana receding within my mind and the power dimming down within me. 

"That's it Little Wolf, take back control. Come with me." Thane puts my hand in his and leads me back into the cabin and up the stairs to the bathroom and restarts the tub.

I look at him and notice that there is blood on his hands. "Are you hurt? Did we? Wait, did I hurt you? Oh no. I am sorry. I am so sorry. I didn't mean to use my power like that. I didn't want to hurt you, it just happened. It...it just...oh no." I feel like I am starting to panic and spiral. 

"No, no, no. You didn't hurt me. You reacted to keep me from her, that's all it was. I know you wouldn't hurt me little Wolf. It is okay." I don't feel a hint of anger or resentment in the bond, just a calming reassurance. 

"I shouldn't have done that. I didn't want you to touch her. I just didn't want you near her. I am sorry." 

"Look at me, Ayla." I look up into Thane's green eyes and they anchor me. "I don't blame your reaction. She said a lot of hurtful things. A lot of lies. I can't blame you. Besides, I don't want any men touching you either." Thane attempts to lighten the mood and smiles at me, but it isn't working. 

"You are bleeding, I hurt you." 

"It isn't my blood Ayla."

I look down at my hands and they are trembling. Shaking really and covered in blood. 

Not my blood. 

Della's. 

The last few minutes start hurling back and the dam to the floodgates of guilt breaks away. She was someone's pup. A friend, a member of this pack, and I ripped out her heart and left her outside like garbage. 

I look up into the mirror and see the trash Della was describing outside. I see the pack rising out of anger because I killed one of their own. I am not theirs. They don't know me and the night I am mated to their alpha; I kill one of their pack members brutally.

"Hey no. Come here, Ayla. We aren't doing this. What happened with Della had to be done. It was either you were doing it or me. I would have preferred me, but it would have been the same outcome at some point. She wouldn't let it go. She wouldn't have stopped. Della was too set on winning me. You have me. You have all of me and I have you. The things she said to you were wrong and untrue. She doesn't know the pack or have much faith in them for her to say that. I know my people, they wouldn't react that way. Della was wrong on so many levels little wolf. So many. You can't shame spiral. You can't feel the guilt; it wasn't your fault." 

"I am sorry I took your friend." 

"I am afraid I lost that friend a long time ago Ayla. Long before you and never realized she was gone."