Off Limits, Brother's Best Friend Chapter 206

Chapter 206: I Don't Care About Her 

Callan

After what happened between me and Hannah, I couldn't look in a fucking mirror. I felt dirty, I gutted a man and was soaked in his blood but all I felt was fucking dirty for cuming inside her. For keeping no barrier between us. I have only done that with one person and I only wanted to do that with one person. I was so consumed by my anger that I didn't even realize what I was doing. What I was really doing and who I was doing it with.

Why was I thinking of her when doing something so fucked up? She shouldn't have been involved but I think it was my distraction to picture her when doing such empty fucking things. That is different, that is new, that is not turning a switch off. It is escapism. I have been practicing numbness in my apartment  since yesterday then but my cousin Angelo kept blowing up my phone asking to come by. If it is to talk, I am going to throw his ass right back out. I don't want to talk about it. Last he saw me, I was stumbling out of the room with guts on my shoes and Hannah hollering for them to stop me. So if this is him coming to check on me, he shouldn't bother. I was at the kitchen counter with a glass of whiskey and my gun resting beside it. I wasn't drunk, but u had a few drinks to calm my nerves. Even cigarettes don't cut it anymore, I heard the ding and knew Angelo just came up. He had texted me he was here and you really shouldn't just show up at my house without warning. Fifty fifty chances I shoot first and ask questions later.

“Well?” I got right to the point, my cousin walked in looking a little worse for wear. I thought I would be the messed up one but he smelt like a bar and was in clothes from yesterday.

“Okay, I have to just lay something out on the table here because I am not sure how you are going to feel about it.” He started. It already got my blood pressure going.

“What?” I asked through a tight jaw. I can't handle anything else, I really can't. I watched him huff out and run a hand down my face. Him stressing also stressing me.

“What is it? Is it her?” My heart was thumping out of my chest.

“Well…yes..I mean…yesterday was dark for all of us, you know and then I went out and well..went out. I got really fucking drunk and just..yeah.” he rambled.

“What the fucking are you rambling about?” I snapped.

“We fucked! We fucked raw!” He shouted out in a panic.

I felt my blood pressure skyrocket but my face felt like it went white instead of red. The fire blazed up to an excruciating degree.

“I will fucking kill you!” I grabbed him by his already wrinkled shirt and pulled him against me. I punched him hard and reached for my gun but forgot I had placed it on the counter. 

I was ready to shoot him in the face, no qualms about it. I was seeing red, he touched her? She touched him? I was shaking with rage and I don't know what else. I grabbed him by the shirt and punched him across the jaw until he stumbled back and almost entirely to the ground.

“Wait?” He hollered when he saw me reaching for my gun that wasn't behind my back like I forgot. My head snapped over to my counter and just as I was about to grab it and murder my own cousin and he spoke up.

“I thought Hannah was fair game!” I stopped, my body still shaking.

“Hannah?” 

So he didn't touch Brianna?

“Yes, man. I am sorry, I really just got drunk and she got drunk.” He went to ramble again.

I huffed out a sardonic chuckle, swiping my hand down my clammy face. I braced myself on the counter while he stayed half on the ground practically blocking his head from me.

“Are you an idiot? I don't give a fuck if you hook up with the girl. I thought you meant fucking Brianna, you dumbass. I was about to kill you.” I shook my head at him. His eyes were wide like saucers.

“Brianna? I would never do that. Are you kidding me? When I said her,  I thought you knew I meant Hannah because we all had a rough day yesterday and everything. Shit got weird after you left.” He informed me. He finally started standing up but I saw him eyeing my gun.

“I don't care shit about her.” I let him know right away. I have no claim over Hannah nor do I ever want to. One claim, one girl, no matter how had I fucked it up.

“Wow, that just took a load off my chest.” He swiped his brow once he saw I wasn't mad.

“No, what you almost got was a loaded clip right into your chest. Speak correctly when you say some shít like that.” I sucked my teeth at him. He scratched his head and I can see, I shook him up a little bit. He tried smoothing himself out but he is hungover and I can see that now.

“We had a bet about this exact thing, Jack asked if I thought if you would kill your own cousin if we were to touch Brianna like Roy did. Umm, anyway, the bet, so I said absolutely you would kill even us. So I just made some money here.” His fingers waved around us. Fucking idiot, I swear.

I just stared blankly at him and he cleared his throat.

“Are you good, man? You know with..” I didn't let him finish. I knew what he was going to ask me, I just held my hand up to stop him from talking and he did

He pressed his lips together and knew to just shut up. My nerves were still shot from the idea of Gelo touching Brianna. I would have killed him, I really would. What does that say about me?

“Is that bastard of Blank Knight handled?” That was all I wanted to know about, what else went down yesterday after I left and he nodded.

“You were yelling some stuff and I kind of overhead it a little. You don't want to talk about it?” He asked again.

When I glanced back at my gun still on the counter, he pressed his lips together and gestured like he was zipping them.

“I will leave you alone, Callan. I will but let me say one last thing before I go. You are fighting this hard about a girl you won't fight for. You are destroying yourself, man. Everyone sees it but you.” 

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Brianna POV

I missed my best friend, I was happy when she returned from her weekend getaway with friends and came straight over. She gossiped about everything they did and who was shady to who and who ended up hooking up with who. I just sat back and let her talk. She was smiling wide which made me smile. I didn't tell her about being robbed, fighting with her brother, his crazy threats against Roy or any of it. I just let her talk and laugh and tell me everything she wanted to tell me about her fun weekend.

“And who did you hook up with, Miss? You are talking about everyone else but was Aaron there or are you not exclusive yet? I teased her, she stuck her tongue out at me and flicked her hair.

“We are not exclusive and I didn't hook up with anyone.” She stuck her nose up at me.”

“Liar,’’  I shoved her.

We were on my sofa with both our legs beneath our bums and our hands grabbing each other like we do when we talk.

“Okay, I did some heavy petting with some guy but I didn't like hookup with him.” she said.

“Was everything so boring here without me?” She asked, I nodded and smiled.

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Jane and I decided to go out for a little while just because she thinks I spent the whole weekend in the house and wanted me to go out. She said ice cream or anything, I decided I would take her up since it is nice and warm out.

“Let's eat in the park, what do you think?” She asked and I agreed and so that is where we went.

“What new events will be coming up for work? Have you talked to Dontella?” She asked me.

We were on a bench under the sun in one of few places you can find greenery and parks in the city. I told about the Prada events last weekend and the photoshoot and also told her about the new event that was coming and I am trying to snag my own plus one so I can bring her.

“I would die, that would be amazing.”  she got overly excited.