Bethany: His Little Wolf Chapter 142

Gamma Jack

We arrive in the dining hall and dispute the early hours It's pretty full, mostly warriors filling their stomachs before their shifts start and mothers or fathers making sure their children eat before they head off to nursery or school.

We arrive at the Alpha's table and I quickly pull my mate down so he’s sitting next to me. “You stay and relax, I’ll go get our breakfast, ok baby?” He gives me a nod along with his beautiful smile and as always it makes my heart fucking flutter. Goddess, I love this man.

I step up to the counter with Cal right behind Liam and me behind him. This setup always reminds me of the high school cafeteria but it works well for us. The walls to the side of the dining hall are lined with long tables and completely covered with hot plates full of food and there's a smaller table on the wall next to it with three coffee machines and a separate machine that dispenses a range of juices while another unit is placed next to that with plates and utensils for everyone to help their selves

The menu for breakfast today consists of bacon, eggs, hash browns, and pancakes that come with endless bouts of topping choices and fruit, lots and lots of fruit. And while I dont feel like eating with everything that's going on I know that I need to so that I can keep my energy up and more than anything I need my mate to eat to keep up his energy and if he sees I'm not eating he's going to worry even more than he is now and that's something I can't let happen.

Gamma Ashley

The moment Jack heads for the breakfast cue with Cal and Liam, Cal's mom Luna Lucy turns to face me with one beautiful smile. Cal's dad and the pack's former Alpha Micheal is sitting next to her enjoying his breakfast while deep in conversation with Liam's dad Joesph.

I was so confused when I first found out that Cal was the Alpha but that his mother was still the Luna, that was until my mate explained it all to me. As Cal hasn't found his mate yet his mom is still the Luna of the pack. It rarely happens as most Alphas wait until the future Alpha has found his mate before he hands over the Alpha title.

Sadly Cal hasn't found his mate yet but his dad was ready to retire and believed in Cal so he handed him the title regardless of his lack of mate with his mom happy to continue her Luna role until Cal's mate arrives.

"How are you feeling darling boy?" Her voice is soft and gentle, between that and her beauty I'd swear that she was an angel.

"I'm ok." I plaster on a smile despite how I'm feeling but I quickly realize that there isn't any fooling this one.

"That may work on others but it won't work on me sweetheart so I'll ask again how are you feeling?" Her voice isn't harsh but it holds a certain command and I can see the Luna in her coming to the surface.

"Honestly, I'm not sure."

"It's ok to feel that way Ashley, honestly you have had a lot to deal with in such a short space of time and yet you keep dealing with it and moving forward all while raising your sister. I personally think you are one incredible man." I can see her words are genuine but if I'm being honest with myself I'm struggling to believe in her words, there is so much I wish I had done differently and it's slowly eating me up.

"I know you think differently but don't." It's as if she's reading my mind... yep she's all Luna right now.

"I dont know what to feel right now aside from guilty." Within just minutes of us talking she has me wanting to spill out all of my feelings and it's scary.

"Why do you feel guilty sweetheart?"

"Jack. I've brought so much trouble to his door since we met and I just wish I could go back and change things."

"Change things how?" There's no judgment in her tone and it just makes me wish that I had a mom like her, even just a little bit like her.

"I just... hell I love him so much already, he's the best thing to ever happen to me, him, Kelly, and this pack but I love him so much that sometimes I find myself wondering if he would be better off without me, without the trouble that I've come with."

She looks at me for a moment without saying a word but I swear I see some sort of understanding in her eyes. "Is that what you want Ashley? Do you want a life without Jack?"

"No, goddess no but I love him so much that I would walk away if it meant that he wouldn't have to deal with this mess of mine. If it meant that this pack could be free of my mess. It would kill me to do it but I would do it for him. Sometimes I wonder if it would have been better if he hadn't met me that day."

Now that I've started talking, I can't seem to stop all of my fears and feelings from pouring out of me like a waterfall, considering this is the first time that I've had a one-on-one conversation with her I'm shocked at how at ease she makes me feel.

Lucy goes to speak but a growl from behind me has both of us stunned silent and turning to find Jack behind me and fuck does he look pissed. Shit, how much did he hear?

"Before you say anything dont!" Lucy's words cut through the air now causing Jack and I to look her way.

He goes to protest but she gives him a Luna/mom look and it's enough to have him remaining silent even if it looks like that's the last thing he wants to do causing a small smile to tug at the corner of my lips at the respect that he holds for her. "Everyone go and sit somewhere else while I chat with my nearly found son here." She gives Jack, Liam, and Cal a firm look before facing me with a wide smirk and winking.

"Mom this is the Alpha's table." Cal's words appear more of a question than a statement as confusion laces his face.

"I dont care now off you pop, all of you." She turns to face Micheal and Joseph. "You two as well." Micheal lets out a little chuckle before nodding to the boys and having them all follow him to another table.

"You didn't need to do tha-" Luna Lucy stops me from saying another word with a raised hand and her stern look.

"Don't you worry about them they will be fine. It does them good to be kept in line now and again and besides, we haven't finished talking."

"I need to talk to Jack. I dont know how much he heard but it was enough to make him mad."

"Don't you worry about Jack, he'll be fine." I try to keep up my protest but she's not having any of it and soon enough I find myself giving in and listening to her making a smile break out on my face when I realize she's not just keeping the guys in line but me too.

We continue to chat but I can't help but worry about how much Jack actually heard. I didn't want him to hear any of it but once I started spilling everything to Luna Lucy I couldn't stop myself and now I'm shit scared that he's going to hate me.