The Delta's Daughter Chapter 230

HUNJI/KIAN

“Stupid, stupid, stupid!” I chastised myself harshly. Pinching the bridge of my nose and biting my knuckles while pacing back and forth by the lake.

I could still smell Morgan all over me. Her sweet piquant juices clung to my fingers and dick. The scent of her skin and her nectareous taste embedded into my mind. “Arggghhh!!!” I yelled out, angry for allowing myself to lose control. Angry because I wanted to go back in there, angry because… I wanted her – because I allowed myself to want her.

I lost myself. I lost myself… in her. I allowed my wolf to guide us, to take control – An Alpha wolf who has formed an attachment to the little witch. Just like his human. And I couldn’t shake her out of my system. My hands were trembling, my heart still beating so hard the thumping shook my bones.

‘We can’t let that happen again, Ruda.’ I tell my wolf, feeling his adrenaline wanting to conquer the female.

His growl, furious ‘Why?’ I feel Ruda’s frustration when he barks out the one word.

‘We made an oath to the moon goddess’ I remind him. And myself, of why we can’t have Morgan and why that can definitely not happen with her again.

Ruda roared at me within ‘You made that deal; you made that oath. Not me!’

‘I took an oath to get you back, if I hadn’t you would have been lost to me!’

“Fuuuck!” I had messed up, really messed up. And then - I just left her there.

As soon as I came on her, I knew I had made a mistake. BIG. Mistake.

‘I want her.’ Ruda’s stubborn Alpha ass huffed at me mentally.

I curled my fists at his ignorance. ‘And at what cost, Ruda!?’ I roared back at my wolf ‘You? Because that’s what will happen! I swore an oath to be her disciple so I could have you back! What do you think will happen if we break that oath?’ He whimpered in my mind, before growling.

Alpha wolves were made to lead and protect. Procreate. Why her, of all people, of all females we have ever been around? Tawny included. Why was the temptation so strong with the little witch? We wanted nothing more than to mount her and claim her.

I hurled myself into the water, sinking down under its blackness.

Stupid thinking. It was me; I knew what Ruda wanted, only surprised he didn’t take it further and sink my cock deep inside that tight pussy of hers. I couldn’t blame my wolf when I allowed it. I could have stopped it at any time. But I didn’t, I didn’t want to.

The dark water engulfed me, letting me feel weightless, unburdening my body but not my mind, of the act I just committed. It couldn’t happen again. I wouldn’t. It was a moment of weakness, and I will explain that to Morgan. I knew she would be pissed at me and with good reason, I couldn’t fault her if she hurled insults at me, nor would I blame her if she threw a slap in my face. I deserved it.

When I could no longer hold my breath, I emerged from the water. Even then I fought to come up for air. Not wanting to face the little witch and my dirty deeds.

How could I have been so foolish? My wolf meant everything to me, Ruda is me. He is part of my very soul, and I could never not, have him with me. Once was enough. I remember the weeks and months wolf-less when I felt as though I was only partially whole. I couldn’t live like that again. Not after getting him back and all the things we have been through together.

A shifter’s counterpart was a part of them, losing your spirit animal is like a human having both arms and legs cut off. Or only having half a brain. They wouldn’t be able to function normally. That’s how it is with our animals. Without them, we are not whole – body, mind, and spirit.

I stayed out here for a while, sitting on the banks of the lake. My forearms resting on my bent knees, my head hanging down between them, I dwelled on my actions. Finally finding some resolve, as well as bravery, I got up and headed back to the cabin. Knowing I needed to not only apologize to Morgan but let her know why something like that could never happen again. I owed her an explanation, and I would give it to her.

To say I felt bad was an understatement. I was embarrassed and ashamed. I felt guilty and appalled at myself. I could only imagine how she felt, how I had made her feel by running out as I did.

When I made it back to the cabin, I could see the flickering light from the fire through the small window. It was quiet. I perked my ears, listening for Morgan moving around or any sound from her, but I only heard her light breathing. I slowly and quietly opened the door to find her fast asleep curled up into a ball on the rug in front of the dwindling fire. If I had a blanket, I would have thrown it over her.

I closed the door behind me as I left the cabin again, shifting into Ruda and curling up on the side of the crumbling building. I doubt she would want me near her right now. I would apologize and explain in the morning before we headed out to the next destination. The faster we got to Mint the better. 

*****

Ruda stirred at first light, cranking his jaws open and yawing, before stretching out and shaking his fur. I shifted back into my skin form, grabbing the discarded shorts from the ground. Despite all the thinking, I did last night, my shoulders still felt heavy and burdened. I walked around the side of the cabin, my hand on the doorknob when I heard the shuffle of feet. Morgan was awake. I leaned my head against the door for a moment telling myself to man up, go inside and apologize to her.

“Damn asshole wolfman!” I heard Morgan huff “I can’t believe he up and left me! What in Apsu’s name…” She snapped around to face me when I opened the door, cutting off her ranting.

“Oh, now you decide to show your face?” She stood there with her hands on her hips glaring at me. I’m sure if she had the power to make me spontaneously combust - She would make it happen.

“Morgan…”

“Don’t you Morgan me, Kian! Do you have any idea how cheap you made me feel?” She was spitting fire and her already red cheeks were reddening by the second.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you feel cheap or used…” My head was down, I couldn’t look her in the eye. “I lost control and none of that should have happened. It can never happen again.” Now I looked up meeting her fierce expression. Her lips were pinched together, hands still on her hips, looking adorable. “We can’t do that again,”

“And why not? Not that I want to do anything with you again. Ever. But I want to know why – you owe me that Kian!”

I nod, solemnly. “That, that’s good.” I take a deep breath and exhale it slowly her indigo eyes trained on me in a scowl “I-I once lost my wolf. And to get him back I swore an oath to the moon goddess… to become her disciple.” I palmed the back of my neck, rubbing it. I have never had to explain myself to anyone before. So, finding the words was difficult. “If I uhm… find pleasure in a female… I lose my wolf.” I swallow down the lump in my throat waiting for her to say something.

Morgan just stares at me, her face not changing as she mulled over my apology and explanation. “Well,” she finally says, her body relaxing slightly. “I’m still mad as shit at you.”. She turned and started stuffing our things into the bag. Sheathing the swords and pulling the pack on her back. I guess she was in the same mindset as me, feeling it was best to get on our way instead staying another night here.

“Let’s go,” She waved her arm at the door. “I would rather see your wolf than you. At least I don’t have to talk to him while I ride him.”

I blink a few times, wondering if she realized the innuendo, she just threw out there. Yeah, she was mad at me, and I deserved it. 

*****

We ran fast and hard, Ruda’s paws pounding across the terrain leaving a trail of dust behind him with Morgan settled on our back. We ran until it was early morning the next day. Only stopping for small breaks. I could feel Ruda’s exhaustion as we slowed down, the lights from the small town glowing just below the ridge of the hill. What was normally a two-day run taking us a little over 24 hours, in our hurried state.

Morgan hadn’t attempted to talk to us, and we welcomed the silence. Awkward as it may be, it was preferable to try to make conversation. The ease I had felt with her before had dissolved along with her pleasant demeanor. We could feel her aversion to us. Maybe not full-on hate but she sure was pissed at us.

Ruda halted at the top of the hill just above the small town, bending down so Morgan could climb off him. She stood beside us taking in the place I had stayed at so long ago. I hoped the Alpha remembered me and would welcome us. I knew Morgan needed a decent meal and a bed to sleep in. We could both do with a bath and some hot food. I could go longer with a minimal diet, but the calories Ruda has burned off running here have left him weak and hungry. Ruda turns his snout to Morgan and nuzzles her hand giving off a small whine.

Looking down at us, Morgan drops the bag by his feet and digs out the pair of shorts, and hands them to us. Ruda and I walk away and shift, her back still to us. Once shifted and dressed in the pair of shorts, I come to stand beside her again.

“Where are we?” She asks. Still not looking at us.

“Trizar.” I glance at her profile “A small Clan of bear shifters.” Her eyes light up. “I came here once, hopefully, I am still welcome.” I start walking down the hill towards the town.

I say, “It is best if you do not mention that Orion is your father, while we are here.”

I hear her hum, but still, she gives me the silent treatment, only speaking if she needs to.

No sooner do we reach the bottom of the hill than we are met by two burly bear shifters. Their sizes are large and broad. Any other wolf would be intimidated but I had a history with Clan. A history I hope would gain us an audience with their Alpha.

“You are on Clan territory.” The biggest of the two starts.

“I am here to meet with your Alpha Mondua. My name is Hunji, and I request an audience with him. We mean your Clan no harm, we are traveling through.”

The two wear bears exchange a look, communicating via mind-link before turning to us. Their eyes raked over Morgan and back to me. “Come with us.” The larger bear shifter finally says.

We follow them the rest of the way to the town. The place hasn’t changed much, the streets still run the same way but there is more building, more houses. The werebears lead us down the main town street and I look around remembering the last time I was here. When we walk past the schoolhouse, Ruda and I stop in our tracks. Our mind filled with memories of the day I saved the Alpha’s children. The memory fresh as the day it happened.

Finally, we reach their Clan mansion, and the two burly men step aside after opening the door. I take Morgan’s hand and lead her in behind me, followed up by our escorts.

“Greetings,” A young woman in black pants and a bright red dress shirt enters from a door to the side. “Our guards tell me that you are here to see Alpha Mondua?” She looks familiar, but the western clothes she wears throw me off.

“Yes ma’am, my name is Hunji, and this is my companion, Morgan.” I motion to her.

“Hunji, your name sounds familiar. When was the last time you were here?” She queries a puzzled look on her face and draws her brow down trying to recall my name.

“Eleven years ago.” A deep voice comes from the top of a set of stairs. “Sister, how can you not remember the face of the man that saved us?” I smile recognizing the young man making his way toward us.

“Zayd.” I say in greeting, a sharp gasp comes from his sister “Zeenat” I turn and dip my head.

“Hunji! It’s been so long. Pardon me for not recognizing you or your name. I was so young!” The Zeenat, the young woman says with a bright smile.

Zayd reaches us, embracing me in a hug and clapping my back “I didn’t think we would ever see you again.” He steps back, his eyes landing on Morgan trailing her form with interest. “And who is this beautiful woman you have returned with?”

“Morgan.” Morgan sticks her hand out and I watch as Zayd takes it in his own, clasping it with his both hands, his thumb gently stroking the back of Morgan’s hand. Holding it for longer than necessary, until Morgan manages to free her hand from his.

“A pleasure to meet you, Morgan,” Zayd says searching her neck for a mark. A smirk comes over his face when he finds none.

“Tell me Hunji, what can we do for you?”

“I was hoping to speak with your father, Alpha Mondua. We seek refuge for the night.” A look of sadness fills Zayd’s eyes and he casts his gaze to his sister. Who is equally as sorrowful looking as her brother. “I am afraid, my father passed some years ago. I am the Alpha now.”

“Pardon me Alpha Zayd, my condolences, I did not realize.” I feel a drop in my heart for the late Alpha, he was a good man and loved his people.

“It was a while ago and my father’s bear was old,”

“May I ask how he died?” I was curious because the late Alpha would have been in his late 50’s now and that was not old for a shifter.

“A freak accident, unfortunately,” Zeenat replied for her brother. “After you left, A King by the name of Orion came through and gave us the means to grow and harvest our own crops. Dear father was out in the fields one day and the Clan member driving the combine didn’t see him or hear him when he shouted and ran right over him, shredding his skin and hitting a major artery.”

Morgan gasped “That’s awful!”

“Yes, it was,” Zayd says, pouting his lips at my little witch. “Poor mother never recovered. His death almost killed her.” I watch as Morgan blushes under his intense and interested stare.

“Hunji, you are more than welcome to stay for as long as you need. I will have a room… or is that two rooms? Prepared for you” I almost laugh at his obvious question, wanting to know if Morgan and I are together.

I want to say yes, we are together. But we aren’t and Morgan makes that very clear to him “Two rooms would be fantastic. I have been traveling with Ki – Hunji for days now and as a woman, I could certainly do with my own space for a night.” She smiles at Zayd and his sister.

“Follow me, I will show you where you can freshen up,” Zeenat says taking Morgan by the arm and leading her from the room.

“I trust you remember your way around the mansion?” Zayd asks me, and I nod. I remember well. “Then you will be in your old room. It is right down the hall from your companion.”

“Thank Alpha,” I say simply.

“Oh, and Hunji,” I turn back to Zayd when he speaks. “Breakfast will be served in a few hours, once the sun is fully up.”

“Again, thank you. I am sorry to disturb you at this hour.”

“No worries, Zeenat and I train early so we are always up at this time. Maybe you would like to join us for training if you decide to stay a few days?”

“I would like that,” I tell him in honesty, curious to know if my training methods are still implemented in this Clan.

I walk up the stairs and find the room I used to occupy over eleven years ago. Entering I see the décor has been modernized, gone is the plain wood and in its place are eclectic designed furniture with grey walls. The bathroom has had a shower installed and tiled. I smile, removing my clothes and turning on the water for a much-needed wash.

I brace my hands on the wall and let the water trickle down my neck and back. It had been seven days since I contacted Lamia and I better connect with her before she sends out a search party and raises hell. After scrubbing myself clean, I find a pair of red cotton pants, boxers, a loose shirt, and a pair of sandals sitting on the bed. Zayd or Zeenat must have had someone bring them up for me.

I dress and flop back on the bed, groaning at its comfort and letting my eyes drift close. Just a couple of hours of sleep, I think to myself.