Pregnant With Four Alphas' Babies: A Reverse Harem Romance Chapter 194: This is What it's Like to Be Dead

*Rose*

I hear voices in the distance. It’s foggy–like they are in another room, through a closed door, maybe underwater. I can’t really understand what they’re saying, but I recognize some of them.

My brain feels heavy, like a sponge that’s soaked up too much water and is dripping onto the floor. Why can’t I think clearly? I can’t even remember what I was doing.

It seems a bit ironic to me that I was pretending not to remember anything when I woke up in Alpha Kane’s castle, and now, as I attempt to blink my eyes, I really can’t remember much of anything.

Thinking of Alpha Kane has my heart racing for a moment. Is he still nearby? Are my babies in danger? I want to lift my hand to protect my abdomen, as I often do, but my arms feel like they weigh a thousand pounds each, and I really can’t move at all.

What’s going on? Is it the drugs he gave me? It seems like I’ve already dealt with all of that….

And then, I remember.

I remember the pain, the uncomfortableness, the stairs, the van, arriving at Mark’s castle, the medicine… and the babies!

I had my babies! I gave birth to all four of them. I’d seen their little faces with my own eyes!

So… why couldn’t I wake up to hold them now?

“She looks so peaceful,” I hear Tristan say. I know it’s him. I recognize his voice, and he’s close by. I can understand him.

‘Like she’s just asleep,” Reece replies.

“The most beautiful woman in the world,” Mark adds.

“I was hoping to have a chance to kiss her again,” Eli laments.

Eli?

Eli!

Eli is here! I’d seen him, too.

I needed to open my eyes so I could be with my men and my babies. But I wasn’t able to.

Their words went back through my mind, and as the meaning behind them began to sink in, I realized what they were talking about.

It all became very clear to me now. I can’t open my eyes. I can’t move. I can’t speak–because I’m dead!

How had this happened? Why would the Moon Goddess let this happen to me? I’d come so far! I’d carried my babies to full-term and given birth to them! I’d fought so hard to keep them safe against the likes of Emily, Barbara, King Gene, Alpha Robert, Alpha Winston, and that awful Alpha Kane. Now, after all of that, I hadn’t even gotten to tell them I love them!

Tears form in my eyes. At least, it seems that tears are forming in my eyes. I’m not sure if that’s possible or if it’s just my imagination, what with me being dead and all. The more I think about my wonderful Alphas, my precious babies, and all of the friends I’ve made that I’m leaving behind, the more I cry.

“Are those… tears?” I think I hear Tristan ask.

“Is she crying?” That’s Reece.

“I think she might be!” Mark chimes in.

“Rose? Rose, baby, can you hear us?” Eli asks me.

I still can’t answer them, but the fact that they can see that I am upset makes me think perhaps I’m not dead after all. I use all of the energy I have left inside of me to try and open my eyes. I just need to see their faces again.

With all of my concentration on just my right eye, after several seconds, I’m finally able to lift my eyelid just a bit. It falls closed again, but I’m not willing to give up. I blink a couple of times, and then both of my eyes are working, and I’m awake–I’m alive!

“Rose!” all four of them sing out, laughing and smiling. It’s hard to focus, but I look from one face to another, and my heart is full with happiness as I realize I am still alive and the blessings that the Moon Goddess has poured out upon me are all right here.

The four Alphas are standing next to my bed, and in their arms, each of them is holding a beautiful baby–my babies.

Eli brushes the tears off my cheeks. “Goddess, I’m so happy to see you. How are you, beautiful?”

My mouth is dry, and it takes a lot of strength to croak out. “Alive.” They all laugh, but I didn’t mean it as a joke.

“Of course you are,” Tristan tells me, standing right next to my left shoulder. “We would never let anything happen to you, little flower.”

A moment later, I hear another familiar voice and cringe. “Move aside, gentlemen!” It’s Dr. Travesty. I was sort of hoping I’d never see her again. Clearly, her name is bad luck.

But then, she did deliver my babies, and I am alive, so there’s that.

“Oh, Miss Rose!” she says. “You gave us quite a scare. I’m so glad you’re back around now. Let me do a quick check.”

“Wh-what happened?” I ask as she begins to listen to my heart and lungs.

“You lost a lot of blood during the deliveries,” Mark explains to me, and I can hear traces of sadness and fear in his voice. “We were afraid it was too much.”

“But the doc gave you some transfusions and patched everything up,” Reece tells me.

I can’t imagine how scary that must’ve been for all of them. All I can think to say is, “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry.” Eli says. ‘We’re just so thankful you’re all right now.”

“She is all right, isn’t she?” Tristan asks the doctor.

Dr. Travesty nods her head. “She is. Miss Rose, you will need some time to rest and recover, but I see no reason why you won’t be just fine in a few days’ time.”

That makes my heart sing. “Thank you, Doctor,” I tell her, so glad that she was here after all, since she apparently saved my life.

“Now, why don’t we let this mama hold her babies?” she says, stepping aside.

The men help me sit up, and then, one by one, they place their children on my lap. I look them over through my tears, unable to believe how beautiful they are. Two little girls, and two little boys. I can see their fathers’ faces in each of theirs, but I can also see myself, and they are worth every moment of agony I’ve gone through since I got on that train.

I’m crying again, but it’s with an overwhelming sense of happiness. I can’t imagine anything in the world ever being wrong again as long as I have these beautiful babies and these four amazing men.

As awful as it was, I can’t help but declare, “I think… one day… I might want to do this again!”

The men exchange wide-eyed glances, and I think they might just be scared of the prospect of us having eight children.

But then, Mark murmurs, “Do you want me to tell her?”

“Tell me what?” I ask, fear building up inside of my chest.

No one is saying anything in response, and as I continue to shift my eyes from one of them to the next, I become more and more frightened. “Tell me what?”

Mark clears his throat and says, “Dr. Travesty had to… take out… your… reproductive organs.”

“What?” I can’t believe what he’s telling me. “What does that mean?”

“It means we won’t be able to have any more children,” Reece explains. “But that’s okay. Because we have these four, and we have each other.”

“And we’ll still be able to have sex,” Tristan chimes in. I turn and look at him, narrowing my eyes. He shrugs. “I just wanted to make sure that part was clear.”

Eli says, “We’re so sorry, Rose. But it was the only way to save you.”

Disappointment rolls over me, but I understand.

I look down at my little bundles and know that they’re the only children I will ever have, so I will be the best mom I can possibly be.

Even if it kills me.

After all, I’ve already been dead once.

And I lived to tell about it.