The Lost Princess Of The Lycans Chapter 149: Dreaded Responsibilities

Sarah POV

After the bath, Ray carried me back to bed and held me until I went back to sleep. When I woke again, Ray stood at the end of the bed with a food tray. I did not feel hungry, but I would eat it because he had gone to the trouble of making me a plate.

" Thank you, baby," I stated.

" You are welcome, babe; you need to eat as much as possible," he stated.

I pushed the food around the plate with my fork and ate a bite. I attempted to eat it even though I was not hungry. I knew I needed to eat. I don't remember what I ate yesterday. I knew I ate, but I could not remember what. I knew that a lot had happened and that we were returning to the White River clan. I was dreading going back there.

I knew that there would be people there who had hurt me. I don't know their names, but I know their faces. I was deep in thought when Ray sat down on the bed.

" Baby, I would not force you to return there," Ray stated.

" But people need to see their queen," Ray stated.

" Also, everyone who has hurt you needs to be punished," Ray stated.

I understood what he meant, but I still struggled with the thought of returning there. How was I going to deal with it? There would likely be a lot of mixed emotions to deal with. We sat and talked for a while. I finally got enough courage to be able to go back. We will be leaving in a couple of days. I was going to pack the most unattractive clothes that I had. I did not want anyone looking at me.

Ray left the room to let me absorb the information and regain my composure. I was a little tearful after the talk. Even though he reassured me that I would never be left alone and that he would always be nearby. I then laid out the clothes I would take and decided to take a break and spend some time with the pups. They were growing and getting big. They were on the floor, starting to roll over and hold their heads up on their own. I sat down on the floor and played with them for a while.

They got hungry, so I fed them and tended to their needs. I then put them down for a nap. I then went back to our bedroom, and Ray was sitting on the bed looking at the clothes that I had laid out to pack. He was disgusted by the clothes that I had laid out to pack. I knew they did nothing to enhance my looks but instead hid them.

" Baby, these clothes are not suitable for a queen to wear," Ray stated.

I then got mad and started yelling at him.

" I don't care if these are suitable," I yelled.

" I don't want anyone looking at me," I yelled.

I then started to shake and cry. He immediately ran to me, grabbed me, and started hugging me. He held me for a long time while I cried and whimpered. After an hour of crying, I stopped. Ray sat there and held me until I quit crying. Even though I had the courage to go, I was still dealing with the emotions of having to do this. Even though Ray did not want to force me, I was determined to get through this.

He was right that I needed this. I needed all that had hurt me punished. That was the only reason that I agreed to go. Also, it might give me some closure. The weather outside was storming but was starting to calm down. The sun was beginning to come back out. I was relieved that the weather was calming down. I was not controlling my emotions at that point. I was raging inside and was struggling to calm down.

The weather outside was reflecting the emotions I was having on the inside. It would calm down, and then the storm would start again. I knew Ray was right about the clothing I had selected, but again, I didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea about how I dressed. I didn't want them to think it would be OK for them to try to have me or harass me. Ray helped me pick out some clothing that was what I wanted but very lovely. Nothing showed too much. Nothing was too tight, and I looked like a modestly dressed queen. I picked out some pajamas, then got clothes ready for the pups.

That was a hassle because they were growing, and many of our clothes did not fit them. Ray said he would go shopping and get them more clothes if I wanted to, and I told him I did not. Truthfully, I just wanted to stay indoors after everything that had transpired since we arrived. I don't know how much one person can take. I was getting stronger every day, and my mate was very supportive.

Ray was so good to me that I did not have one complaint. He was understanding and patient. I did not know if other mates were the same or if they were mean to their mates, but I'm sure not a lot of them had been through what I had been. Ray had picked out some clothes for Raymond, and I picked out Isabella's clothes. I was having doubts about taking them with us, but I wasn't going to leave them alone without me.

I knew it was risk-taking them, but I also knew that Ray would ensure we were all protected. I noticed that a lot of warriors from the palace were already there. They had arrived that morning. Ray had introduced me to them. They had put up tents around the grounds. They were nice. They did not look at me with disgust in their eyes. Even a few tried to flirt with me. But Ray had put them in their place real quick. I thought they were crazy for trying to flirt. There was no telling how far Ray would take their punishments.

I knew he was fair, but mates were more aggressive with their punishments. They stopped doing what they were doing when he growled at them. So I was sure that was the end of that. He had a smile on his face when he dismissed them. I asked him what he was smiling about and said I would find out later. I looked out the window, and it did not even look like there was a war there. Everything had been cleaned up, and all the bodies had been removed.

The hospital tents had been taken, and the prisoners had all been brought to their lands. However, a few witches in the hospital's prison ward were too severely injured to move, so they remained there. I finally finished packing everything and was ready to go, but it would still be a few days before we left.