Sold by my Alpha, bought by my Mate Chapter 124: Fear of losing him

"I really don't want to go over this again," Asher said angrily.

"But mate..."

"No, no, and no. I'm sorry if I'm an Alpha who thinks about the welfare of his pack and mate, and that welfare doesn't include you jumping headfirst into hell, Millie!" he said annoyed, while Jeremiah watched us.

It had been as difficult as I thought it would be. I knew this topic would come up again, since I had met the vampire myself several times in libraries and wherever we could gather information on how to enter Hell, or how to get close to demon information, or even a tool or something to defeat them. But the situation had proven impossible.

"It's a formidable enemy we're up against, Alpha, and we haven't found another solution," Jeremiah said, and my mate didn't seem to care.

"It's impossible for you to go to hell and nothing happens. It's like going into the sea and coming out dry!" Asher said.

"Asher... we have no other option."

"There is always another option! I refuse to put my mate in such danger," he said, leaving the room of the pack house, angrily.

This pack had been much easier than the previous ones. The place was beautiful, though I was tired of going from pack to pack.

I didn't even fantasize about going to the castle anymore; I just wanted to be in River Ash. But I knew what lay ahead of us, and all that was still missing.

"Let me talk to him," I tell Jeremiah and run after my mate.

I find him on the balcony, looking out at the northern lights. We had spent some really beautiful days here, but now the tension was palpable, and somehow I feared this would happen.

"Mate," I say, and he closes his eyes.

It was the first time we had ever argued. He and I always seemed to get along, he was always the most careful, sensible, kind man, everything I had dreamed of in a man and didn't think existed.

"You can't seriously ask me to support this insanity..."

"Asher, I do it for everyone, but also for us. I just want the time to come when all of this is over and we can go to River Ash, that we can be together, that I can use everything I've learned to make the Luna you deserve. I don't want any of this! And believe me, we've looked for ways and means. But there seems to be nothing." but he looks so serious.

"What would you think if I had to go on a terrible mission, risking my life and not knowing if you'd ever see me again?" he says, and of course the thought breaks my heart.

"I would be devastated, I would suffer, but I know it's your job as Alpha to protect the pack and me. And I know that whatever you do, you'll always think of me, that you want to be with me every day, that it's natural for us to be together. I would be sure that you will come back to me, unharmed" I say, and I know he knows what I'm saying is true, even if it's hard for him to accept.

He seems defeated.

"It never had to be like this, you know? You have been through too much and I was supposed to protect you," he says.

For the first time, I see him so vulnerable. It both frustrated and filled me with tenderness to see this side of him. He had always been such a proud Alpha who knew who he was and what he could do, and now he seemed desperate. For me, just for me.

"Do you understand that it's also the Luna's role to take care of everyone, and I think for some reason the goddess gave me this gift. I would never let you go into battle against beings we don't know how to fight. Give me the chance to help you, give me the chance to try and make sure that you and Cormac come back to me safe and sound".

"But we still don't know, if going to hell is the solution, could be a high risk that leads us to nothing Millie. Nothing is certain."

"I've dreamed of fire, mate, you've seen my paintings. Hell seems to be written in my fate. I know there's still hope that we can find another way, but everything seems to indicate that we'll have to use my powers," I say, and he seems crushed.

"I need you with me, I need your support" I say, hugging him.

I run my hand over his face, caressing his eyelids with the tips of my fingers, the pointed shape of his nose, his beautiful and prominent cheekbones, his golden beard, his luscious and delicious lips, his neck, his hair.

"I love you so much. I would give my life for you. I would go to hell for you..." I say, and he looks at me in astonishment.

His expression is now somewhere between surprise and wonder. I had already said that I loved him, but there was something in my voice that was so true that it moved us both.

"You know what I think? That the power that the Luna of Prophecy gives to the Alpha who is with her, isn't just about being able to see the future or help in a war, it's not even about power and control. I'm convinced it's about the strength we have together, that this bond between you and me is so special. Because it's been sacrificed. But here we are, together, even with all that we have had to go through " he gives me a sad smile as if he had suddenly realized, but then his face falls.

"An Alpha who wouldn't hesitate to go to war and a Luna who wouldn't hesitate to go to hell," he adds.

"I guess we're a pretty crazy Alpha and Luna... but also capable of kicking a lot of ass," I say.

"I'm just scared for you," he says.

"I know."

"I only need time... I don't know if I can accept it," he says and I feel something is wrong.

"Mate..." I say with a sigh.

"I'm fine... just... let me find a solution until the time comes. give me one chance to protect you" he says and hugs me. He's different, I know... and I'm afraid of losing him.