Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 113

The water runs down my body while I shower, and I don't even pay much attention to what I'm doing.

Troy whines to be close to his mate. He complains that he almost died, and now that he's alive, he doesn't want to miss any opportunity to be close to her.

It's not just about the action itself but the fact that I discovered it by accident. That feeling of being betrayed… it's haunting.

Inner turmoil is a storm raging inside me. On one hand, Troy's urging me to go to his mate and forgive her. But then, there's the other voice, my own voice, one forged from the scars of my upbringing, warning me to distance myself, to safeguard against the possibility of more deception.

The anger I feel towards her makes me clench my teeth. I dry myself with the towel while my mind tries to calm down.

However, when I run my hand over the mirror to remove the fog and see my reflection, I get a fucking fright.

What happened?

What the fuck happened to my face?

I touch my face with my fingertips, looking for the huge ugly scar that was there.

The lack of my scar leaves me in shock, and I can't believe it.

I always wanted this scar to disappear, but it was impossible!

'Impossible until our mate removes it,' Troy says.

I press on the area where the scar was, I rub it as if it were going to appear in some way or as if my eyes were playing tricks on me.

But it's real.

The scar my father gave me is gone!

Did she do this? I ask myself rhetorically, but Troy responds impatiently, 'Obviously! Of course, she did it. Who else would have done it?'

I see my reflection in the mirror, still shaken by Katie's power.

She's just a human. How did she do this? How is she a healer?

'She saved our lives!' Troy speaks firmly.

*She saved our lives*, I repeat to myself.

She saved me...

As much as she hid her power from me, she gave up her secret to save my life.

I run my hand over my face, and suddenly, my thoughts are less confusing.

She saved my life!

And what did I do? I almost rejected her.

'*You can't let your traumas control you*, especially when it comes to our little mate,' Troy says, and it feels like something flicks a switch inside me.

He's right. I need to change! The huge scar that my father 'gift' me was a reminder that I should never show mercy to anyone, it was a reminder that I always wanted to erase.

Not only did Katie erase it, she brought me back to life.

It's hard to admit that I still can't move past my traumas. I feel like I can't do that.

But I can't let this dominate me, I can't end the only good thing that taught me what happiness is.

I run to my closet and throw on the first outfit I come across before running to my car.

Jason brought my car back and parked it for me in the garage a few minutes ago.

I take a deep breath as I drive towards my mate's house, I don't care that she lied to me, I'm going to make her promise to never do that again.

We'll get through this, I can't lose her.

Before I died, the last thing I thought about was her, and just thinking about losing her forever makes me feel a pain in my chest as suffocated as the claws of the rogue who killed me.

'She brought us back, and you didn't even thank her!' Troy growls at me, and I tighten my grip on the steering wheel.

He's right. Again.

I barely turn off the car and run away, she must be exhausted, she helped throughout the second round without a moment's break.

I try to open the door to her house, but it's locked, so I knock hard until Chad opens it.

"Kaiden? What are you doing here?" he asks me, and I ignore him as I walk in the direction of Katie's bedroom. "Are you feeling better?"

"Where's Katie?" I ask, but I don't wait for him to answer; I open the door to Katie's bedroom because I feel where my mate is.

I close the door behind me first, so I don't talk to Chad. I'm still angry that he lives here with her, but I think I'm more jealous that he lives with her and I don't.

Why would she live with me? *I do not deserve this*.

I hear the sound of the shower turning off, and I know that Katie is about to get out of the shower. I lean on her bedroom door to wait for her, still trying to think of what to say to her.

Katie comes out of the bathroom with a towel around her body and another in her hair, her eyes are swollen and red, she must have cried a lot... all because of me.

She gets scared and jumps when she sees me and gasps before saying, "Kaiden... w-what are you doing here?" she stutters on the question. I feel how sad she is by her voice, and Troy growls at me in my head.

She puts both hands in front of her as if she was preparing to protect herself from some attack, she's already used to me attacking her with my words.

I wince over her reaction and walk towards her. She almost takes two steps back, but I don't let her; I hold her hands.

"Katie, look at me," she lifts her face, and her beautiful eyes meet mine, "I'm sorry," I say, and she frowns without understanding.

"What?" she says as she turns her head slightly to the side. My eyes follow her every reaction like a hawk; she is so beautiful.

"I'm sorry I treated you that way," I say quietly but firmly, and it takes her a while to assimilate my apology, but she eventually nods slightly.

A drop comes out of her hair and runs down her face, but she doesn't seem to mind. She looks at me intently, "thank you for saving my life," I say sincerely, and I decide to open my heart to her, even though it makes me more vulnerable. This time, I'm the one who looks away, "I don't deserve you, I know you'd like to have someone different as your mate," my insecurity is finally revealed, and I hold my breath. I'm so tense.

"I don't want something anyone can have. I want you, Kaiden!" I hear her soft voice, and I look at her immediately, "I thought I lost you and Troy..." Her eyes fill with tears, and I let go of her hands to hug her. "I thought I lost you..." she sobs, choking on my chest, "I was so lost! I'm sorry I lied. I'm sorry I hid it from you!" she cries, and I take a deep breath. This time, I'm more relieved than ever.

"We're here, we're not going anywhere," I reaffirm, and she cries even more.

"I couldn't tell you, if someone finds out that I'm a healer, I could be in danger," she says when she manages to stop crying a little.

"I know," I say, still hugging her.

The thing is, it is indeed dangerous. Katie's gift makes her a target.

She brought me back to life. Although I think this was only possible because I was her fated mate, it doesn't lessen the extent of her power.

If someone with bad intentions finds out about her power, they may try to enslave her to use her power. I know this because it was what my father wanted most.

This was one of the reasons he wanted us to invade the packs in search of a wolf that could have this power.

Despite it seeming like a myth, he believed that there was someone with such power.

Well, he was right, and this little human in my arms is here to prove it.

However, he was wrong in looking for wolves because she is wolfless.

If Duncan finds out about this, my little mate will be in so much danger. As long as she's by my side, I'll never let anything happen, but Duncan is cunning Alpha.

I hold her shoulders and pull her away from me a little so she can look at me. "From now on, your secret is my secret. I will protect you," I promise her.

"Pink swear?" she says, drying her tears and pointing at me with her little finger.

"I pinky swear that," I hook my pinky with her soft one.

She kisses our intertwined fingers, and then I do the same. Then she hugs me again, and my body feels calmer and more relaxed just by having her in my arms.

"Promise me that you will never hide anything from me again, my little sun," I say, tightening our hug. It takes her a while to respond, but I hear the soft whisper of her voice.

"I promise."