Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 70

It seems like in the recesses of my mind, there's a persistent voice that begs me to come back to Kaiden.

However, I battle to suppress this internal conflict, I try to block this line of thinking because now I need to focus on something else.

I forcefully shift my attention to Chad.

Chad. Yes, he's the priority now.

I shake my head in an attempt to clear the lingering thoughts of Kaiden that threaten to intrude on my focus.

I try to find words that could lessen the tension that is present as we walk to his car.

In silence, he opens the car door for me. As always, Chad is a perfect gentleman.

I step inside, and I'm immediately enveloped in a mouthwatering aroma that dances around me, its origins a delightful mystery for the moment. Chad smoothly slides into the driver's seat, his face breaking into a welcoming smile.

With a charming glint in his eye, he directs my attention towards the back seats. "I've picked up your beloved treats from that charming bakery you adore," he announces, his voice tinged with warmth. "I figured you'd be hungry, beautiful," he turns around and starts driving.

A heavy weight of guilt tugs at my conscience. I feel terrible. *I definitely don't deserve him*.

My voice wavers with bashfulness as I murmur. "Thanks, I'm quite hungry, but you really didn't have to."

Chad, his focus firmly on the road, offers no words in response, only a gentle nod and an understanding smile.

As I turn my gaze toward the window, the outside world is cloaked in darkness. It's astonishing how much has unfolded today, a whirlwind of events that I'm struggling to process.

Kaiden drops the bomb on my lap with the fact that I'm his fated mate, I get drunk, Kaiden takes me to the forest, and now, in the aftermath of it all, I find myself in Chad's car, headed toward home, the weight of the day settling heavily in my chest.

Yep, I think I should have drunk more because I'm too sober for these events.

All this in just one day.

I'm scared of what might happen before I can go to sleep.

However, I can't deny it: unlike Kaiden, who is always acting angry and making the whole situation even more stressful, Chad is the complete opposite. Chad is so calm it seems like nothing is happening. I would like to take Jake's training class just so I can master this skill.

I didn't even realize we arrived home, lost in my thoughts, which weren't at all useful in starting this conversation with Chad.

Meanwhile, Chad opens the car door for me and then takes out the things he bought. I try to help him carry the bags, but he won't let me.

We walk in silence to my apartment, and when we get close, I start to hear voices and laughter.

Jason is definitely here.

"I hope that delicious smell I'm scenting is my reward for fixing your door, little Luna," Jason says jokingly as Chad rolls his eyes.

We enter the apartment, and Chad places the bags on the table.

"Don't worry, I'm done here. I'll take this as payment," Jason jokes as he fiddles with some tools.

"I imagine you guys have a lot to talk about. As soon as we finish fixing the door, I'll call you guys for something to eat," Jake says, as always, reading the situation without needing any words.

I smile at my best friend and go with Chad to the living room.

We've been here so many times, we've watched movies so many times, we've kissed and exchanged words of affection with each other so many times.

Because of this, this doesn't seem like the best place to put an end to our relationship.

Chad sits on the couch, and I sit next to him. I take a deep breath and try to ignore old memories of us in this exact spot.

"Hey, calm down. It's okay, Katie," Chad says as he leans closer to me and runs his hand down my back after I place both of my hands over my face.

His tenderness overwhelms me, and I struggle to contain the emotions welling up inside. "You treat me so well. I don't deserve it," I admit, my voice quivering as I try to hold back the tears threatening to escape.

Chad's hand continues to soothe my back, and with his other gentle hand, he carefully lifts mine from my face, locking his gaze on my teary eyes. "You were the best thing that ever happened to me," he asserts with unwavering conviction, and I'm torn apart by the guilt for not being able to fully reciprocate his feelings.

"I'm sorry about everything, Chad. You've always been so wonderful to me. You were the best boyfriend any girl would dream of having," I tell him, and he smiles, "until a few moments ago, I would give anything to feel the same way you feel for me," I continue, and his smile fades.

"I would give anything to have you, beautiful." He says firmly and then smiles. "But I respect you, and I know it can't be easy for you right now."

"I just didn't want to hurt you," I say, looking away as tears start to fall.

He puts both hands on my face, forcing me to look at him. "I will always be here for you. You mean too much to me for me to cut you out of my life," he promises.

I look into his eyes, and I can't see a shred of doubt in his eyes from the words he says. Chad always makes everything simple and peaceful. "Thank you for being you," I say relieved. I feel selfish because even though I don't want to have a relationship with him anymore, I still want him in my life.

I hug him, and he hugs me back.

"If you don't hurry, Jay won't leave you anything," Jake yells, and Chad and I smile as I wipe away my tears.

Jake called at the exact time the conversation had ended. Surely, they must have heard everything.

Well, at least I don't have to repeat everything to Jake later.

We get up, and before going to the kitchen, Chad pulls me and hugs me again, then kisses me on the forehead.

"I'm sorry, beautiful, I can't... I'm just..." he says with his lips still on my forehead and tightening the hug even more.