Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 114

***Katherine***

*I watch helplessly as my mate dizzily falls from a towering cliff.* *I reach out, my heart pounding with a frantic urgency, but the distance between us stretches impossibly far.* *His voice fades into the abyss as I struggle to grasp his hand.*

*Next, a merciless inferno engulfs him. I race against time,* *driven by desperation to douse the flames, yet they consume him mercilessly, leaving only ashes where his* *warmth once stood.*

*Then, the torment shifts — Kaiden appears next to me, lying all covered in blood. Deep knife cuts all over his body*.

*My mate raises a hand towards me as if he only had the strength to do this, but before his hand reaches my face, his hand lands limp next to him.*

*I try with all my might to heal the stab wounds on his body, but it's just... in vain!*

*He doesn't come back to life. His body gets colder and colder until it starts to decompose and becomes just bones beneath my hand*.

*The suffocating feeling of not being able to save him is too much and I scream desperately with all my strength, but no sound comes out.*

*The cycle continues, a relentless onslaught of tragedies. An incurable ailment gnaws away at his vitality, and my healing touch falters,* *unable to stall the cruel march of his* *fate*.

*Each time, I wield my power to save him, but fate mocks my efforts*.

*The anguish of witnessing his demise, repeated in ghastly variations, leaves me breathless and trembling.*

Suddenly, I hear screams, and I start to recognize that voice.

It's my voice!

I feel someone shaking me, and then my watery eyes open. I see Chad next to me, with a worried look and a hand on my sweaty face.

"Katie, you were having a nightmare—"

He doesn't finish the sentence because a tremor passes through me.

Images of my nightmare begin to appear in my mind; each one of them is a grisly manifestation of my deepest fears.

Just thinking about not being able to save Kaiden in time and the desperation I had to bring him back, all of that makes my stomach turn over on itself.

It turns so violently that I stagger to my feet and barely make it to the toilet before I'm heaving up whatever's left of my dinner.

Chad's behind me a second later, pulling my hair out of my face and rubbing circles over my back as I hunch over and heave. When I'm at least semi-confident that nothing else is coming back up, I stumble over and collapse onto a stool. Elbows braced on my knees, I rest my forehead in my upturned palms and focus on dragging deep breaths in and out.

Chad hovers behind me. He keeps his hands on me, touching lightly as I try to calm my racing heart and try not to think about my vivid nightmares.

Chad gives me a glass of water, and I don't even know what time he went to the kitchen and got it. He is dressed only in blue shorts, his muscular chest is exposed directly to me as I drink the water. I drink it like I was in the scorching desert for three days.

When I finish drinking the water, he takes the glass from my still shaking hand, "Are you feeling better?"

I nod, looking away from him. "It's the third night in a row. What were you having a nightmare about?"

I stay silent, I don't want to remember them. "I don't remember," I lie to him. He doesn't seem to believe me but doesn't press me with any more questions.

"Thanks for the help, I'm sorry to throw up in front of you, I know, it's disgusting," I say, covering my face again, suddenly, the shame of him seeing me at my worst starts to settle in me.

He extends a hand towards me to get me up while saying softly, "Don't worry about it. I'm glad to help," he smiles at me as I stand up and gives me a kiss on the forehead.

He stays with his lips on my forehead for a while, I bite my lower lip at his proximity to me. It's still so strange not being able to hug him like I used to.

I think he feels the same.

He takes his lips off my forehead, and at the same time, he wraps me in a hug. He doesn't say anything, just hugs me tight.

I hug him back, and in the comfort of his arms, I can't stop thinking that, once again, I lied to Kaiden.

I lied that I would never hide anything from him again, but what he doesn't know is that I'm already hiding it!

And I don't have it in me to tell him. Partly out of fear of him wanting to mark me when he discovered that I'm not wolfless, as he barely accepts the fact that I'm just human.

I would like to tell him the whole truth, but I can't risk Kaiden not caring about my pack. I really like Kaiden, but I have to admit that he acts a lot on impulse.

Another part of me is afraid of his reaction. What if he rejects me?

What if he can't take this lie anymore and never trusts me again?

What if he finds out about all this, and it's too much for him? The risk of having a red wolf as a mate is very high; he could even be in danger if someone found out.

"It's almost 5am, we need to get ready, Jake and Jason should be ready for training," Chad says, taking me back from my thoughts.

I can't deny it, I feel so safe with Chad that I started to ramble that I didn't even notice.

If he were my fated mate, everything would be easier, Chad is so understanding, so supportive, and so easier to deal with.

I'm not afraid of his reaction to anything, unlike Kaiden.

"Of course," I say as I walk him to my bedroom door, as soon as he leaves, I close the door and start changing my clothes for training.

It's been a few days since I brought Kaiden back to life and promised I would never hide anything from him again, and here I am, lying again.

I thought he was going to reject me. I cried so much it felt like my world was ending. Until he comes and reconciles our relationship.

After that, we have all been training together; some warriors from the pack have been training with us.

As crazy as it sounds, living with Chad didn't make our relationship weird. On the contrary, I'm loving that Jay and he came to live with us.

Our dynamics changed a little, but we managed to adapt in the best way possible.

As soon as I grab my gym bag, I head towards the kitchen, and Jake, Jason and Chad are already ready and waiting for me.

"Kaiden is going to freak out that we're late," Jake says as he starts to grab his things to leave.

"Are you feeling better?" Chad asks me as we walk toward the exit.

I say softly, "Uhm... Yes, I am."

"Nightmares again, little Luna?" Jay asks, turning his face away from me, a little worried.

Jake's eyes meet mine, and I don't even need to tell him because he knows the reason for the nightmares, "Don't worry about it," I answer Jay, but looking at Jake, and Jake nods slightly.

The place where we train is not that far from where we live, after a few blocks, we are already at the Training Center.

As soon as we arrive, I look at the people who are already training; Kaiden is sparring with Dean, with some people around watching, and other warriors are where the gym equipment is.

I put my bag on one of the benches and go to where Kaiden is, with Jake, Chad and Jay.

As soon as I look to the side, I see a warrior looking at me with a disdainful face, and then I look away from her.

Kaiden corrects some of Dean's mistakes, and then Dean bows to him before Kaiden comes towards me.

I smile immediately when I see him, he's wearing a black tank top and black shorts, I'm glad he's not shirtless. I don't want anyone to see his body besides me.

He pulls me into his arms and gives me a wild kiss without caring who is around, "Get a room," Jay teases and I end the kiss with a giggle.

"Katie, today you're going to spar with someone different so I can analyze your movements," he says, and I automatically look straight at Jake, but Kaiden shakes his head like a big no. "It won't be with him, it will be with Isabel," as soon as he speaks, the girl who was looking at me with a disdainful look takes a step forward. Her face is stoic compared to earlier, "she's one of my best warriors," she smiles slightly at Kaiden's praise.

I feel like vomiting again, even with nothing in my stomach to get out.

I have a feeling I'm not going to get out of this spar in one piece.