Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 59

***Katherine***

Abruptly, I feel a sudden push, and when I open my eyes, I see that Kaiden has separated me and Chad. I look at him in astonishment as he growls at Chad with a deadly, vicious glare. Everyone was uneasy.

"What's your problem?" I yell at him, and he looks at me angrily but a little scared. The muscle in his jaw pops, and his teeth clenched tightly together. I look at the scary scar on his face, and the scar makes his reaction even more lethal.

I wasn't expecting this brusque reaction from him. I didn't even want to come here after what he did to Becca in the first place.

But after talking to Jake, I realized that there was no point in avoiding him. One way or another, Becca was going to end up dying from this stupid tournament. This tournament started out being barbaric. I didn't think it would be this violent, I didn't know it would involve anyone's death, least of all Becca's.

How can a tournament be so barbaric like that? I thought it would be another kind of test. I am still grieving over this whole situation, and I don't think I'm alone, I think there must be others who are crying for the thousands of lives that were lost during the first task.

I wish to be the next Queen just to change this barbarity they call tournaments. For me, it's nothing but just plain violence.

Despite that, I can't blame Kaiden for doing this to her, she was destined to suffer that fate just for being around when there was the first test. This doesn't lessen my pain, but it helps me to put some logic into the situation and thus be able to continue with our contract.

He glared at me and then glared back at Chad with so much anger I thought he was going to shift at any moment.

"Someone might come by and see you two," he says through clenched teeth, still glaring at Chad.

I try not to look at his face and fail miserably. I saw that his beard was a little big as soon as I entered his office. He looks like he hasn't cut since he went to the first round. Even this way, he's still handsome.

In fact, he's even masculine and sexier.

Close your mouth, Katie, or you'll end up drooling!

I should be pissed at him, but I can't. Even before giving a truce to the situation, I still couldn't really get to hate him, and that made me hate me because I should hate this guy. *This big, sexy, angry guy*.

I am frustrated to hear his explanation for stopping the kiss, I know what I did, and I know what I expected to hear from him.

A minute ago, with an exhilarating rush of adrenaline, I dashed toward Chad and wrapped my arms tightly around his neck, taking him by surprise. While in a burst of emotion, I planted a passionate kiss on his lips. Initially taken aback, he remained motionless for a brief moment, with his eyes widening in surprise before reciprocating the hug, encircling me with his massive arms, and returning the affectionate kiss.

I know why I did it. I did it to make Kaiden jealous, I wanted to see what his reaction would be to seeing me with Chad. I didn't expect that response from Kaiden. Now I just feel pathetic. Ugh!

I was going to break up with Chad, and now I'm here kissing him in front of everyone. Could I be any more idiot?

Even though he was so surprised at first, at least I know Chad liked it since he responded so… willingly.

Breathing heavily, Chad pulls away from me with a sad look. Now I feel even more guilty. I say, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that-"

"You really shouldn't. Don't do that here anymore!" Kaiden interrupts me and yells angrily at me.

"Next time, I will kiss you when no one is watching, Chad!" I retorted just to tease him for yelling at me.

He growls and glares at me, angrier, probably worried about someone seeing and finding out about this cheating. Deep inside my heart, I wish he felt an ounce of what I feel for him.

After a few moments of silence, Jake and Jason started talking, and eventually, Chad and I joined in the conversation while Kaiden kept glaring at me.

We talked about the next steps, and the guys told me that they might be as cruel as the first round, which made me a little apprehensive. I just hope this tournament ends soon and that the right person to be king is the new alpha king.

Chad was the first to leave, he went to solve something that Kaiden ordered, the way Kaiden said it seemed something urgent, then Jason called Jake to show him something. These two are getting closer and closer together. They are looking for every little opportunity to be alone.

I'm happy for them, especially the fact that Jake is accepting Jason. I was so worried for him, but now I'm more relieved. Every day, I tease him to know when they're going to mark each other. He always avoids the subject.

He's not ready yet, but I think it's already a big step for them to be together like this since Jake almost rejects their bond initially.

When I realize I'm alone with Kaiden while I wait for Jake to go home, my heart starts to race.

I can't be alone with him, I don't trust my traitor body.

Just seeing him makes me want to run to him, I wish I had done to him what I did to Chad.

I miss the hug we had when I saw him...

I missed him, so what?

I'm allowed to miss him, *right*?

No, I'm not. I need to put myself together!

"Congratulations on the suggestion, that sounded really... nice," he says, breaking the silence, he looks at me with beautiful, mesmerizing eyes that minutes ago were deadly.

"Hmm... Thanks. I had this idea after volunteering to help people who live far from the hospital, I already knew some people, it was good to see them again."

He looks at me tenderly, I look at his hair, as well as his beard, his hair is a little long, a little above his shoulders... it seems that it is *begging* for the caress that my fingers could do.

I shake my head a little to get rid of the thought, he looks at me with a naughty smile, and I look away from those ocean blue eyes.

"Can't look me in the eye, little squirrel?" he says, smiling mischievously.

"Don't be ridiculous," I cross my arms and look at the door, hoping in my thoughts that Jake will show up soon so we can leave, and I don't have a chance to be stupid again.

"Don't make that face, or I'll come over there and kiss you," he challenged.

Kiss me! Kiss me! Kiss me! My mind begged.

No, Katie!

I widen my eyes and snap back, "If I want to kiss someone, I kiss Chad."

He rages and slams his hands on the desk.

"Did that hurt, Alpha?" I ask with a raised eyebrow.

He rages but immediately changes his gaze. It seems like he's receiving a mindlink message.

Jake enters the room and calls me. Jake could have come sooner, the little time I had with Kaiden was enough for me to act like an idiot again. I don't even look back, I run to Jake, from the angry face Kaiden made when I retorted, I don't want to be here to hear his answer.

"No marks?" I tease Jake and giggle as we walk down the hall of the packhouse toward our car.

He rolls his eyes and messes my hair with his hands. But in the car, he surprises me with what he says.

"You said you were going to break up with Chad... If you don't like him, don't get his hopes up because he loves you, Katie. He loves you. I am disappointed in you."

Immediately, I feel like I'm carrying one hundred pounds on my back for what he said. I know I was wrong, and seeing Jake disappointed in me makes the weight of my mistake even heavier.