Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 204: Book 2 - Chapter 37

***The Healer***

Well, maybe, just maybe, there’s some truth to the whole “rest and breaks” thing. I mean, who would have thought? As much as I hate to admit it, maybe there’s something to be said for taking a breather once in a while.

Especially when I’m resting in a bed and not on the cold cave floor or on four legs like Tyra.

Maybe there is something to getting more rest and having regular breaks. I’m not ready to admit that to Nox, though; his head was already big enough.

Or maybe it’s just because I was lying next to my fated mate. He was holding me like I was going to disappear at any moment. HA! *That is never going to happen!*

We will never separate from each other.

After the nightmare Nox had, he hugged me so tight that he almost took my breath away, but I was more worried about the strong smell of *fear* he exuded.

He didn’t want to tell me what the nightmare was about, and I didn’t force him because he was already terrified enough.

When he calmed down and stopped shaking, we both ended up falling asleep.

I stretch my arm out, the sleep was so restful, I’m feeling so much better than any other day in the last few months.

I put on my clothes and put away the nightwear that Nox gave me as a gift with a smirk on my face, remembering the deviant way he looked at me dressed in it yesterday.

Nox wasn’t by my side when I woke up, which gave me a small heart attack, but I calmed down when I felt his presence near our room.

Maybe he’s in Letum and Dana’s room.

Yesterday I heard him being jealous of Letum, the possessive way he told Letum to back off was sexy as fuck.

I almost came out of the bathroom because I didn’t even care what I said to him, or what he said to me, or what we’d been fighting about. Our fight wouldn’t stop me from tearing his clothes and having sex with him in the chair he was sitting on.

However, I soon lost the motivation to act on my impulse when I remembered that it was Letum he was talking to.

Disgust roils in my gut at Nox’s implication.

Ew. Gross. Letum is my brother.

Ugh. I shudder in disgust at the slightest thought of anything romantic with him — ew, ew, ew.

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He nuzzled my neck, sniffing over and over like he could inhale not just my scent but me.

“Nox, you should have told me about this before.” My voice is firm, but my knees are weak from his possessiveness, from his need to always be either holding hands with me or hugging me.

It’s a good thing he’s holding me tight with his massive muscular arms right now. “I know you liked it,” he says arrogantly before kissing my neck and pulling his face back to look at me with a bright smile.

He’s using his affection to convince me, and damn him, *it’s working*.

When we left the motel, there was a black pickup truck, which Nox claimed was now ours.

Before I could freak out on him, Letum and Dana were already inside the truck, both excited about our new, different mode of transportation. Traitors.

“We’ve been walking everywhere just fine.” I shrug.

“Little Princess, look at them.” He speaks as if Letum and Dana can’t hear from where they are inside the truck, but the smiling traitors pretend they aren’t listening. “It means no more worrying about the weather or carrying heavy backpacks to you and them. You have to admit, just *walking* everywhere we need to go is fucking exhausting.”

“Don’t hold back, please. Speak your mind.” I roll my eyes. I’m not sure what it is about him that makes me lose my usual reserve.

His beautiful chuckle at my response is enough to make me stop feeling angry at him and simply accept that I lost this battle.

He hugs me tightly and then kisses my lips. “Walking is too simple for someone so princely like you, right?” I tease him, and he rolls his eyes at me, but his bright smile still exposes the dimples in his cheeks.

He holds my hand, “Come on, little Princess, your carriage awaits,” he says with a dramatic bow.

I shake my head. Seriously. My mate has a serious royalty complex that I honestly don’t know where it came from.

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***The Warrior***

As always, Dana seems to quicken her pace more and more the closer we approach the central cave.

I think she doesn’t even care about anything dangerous around us. She just seems to want to get there as quickly as possible.

That’s all right. I’m on alert enough for both of us. I would never let anything happen to her. But for that to happen, I need to be dead first.

I understand her motivation. If I had a fated mate, I would probably act the same way she’s acting right now; maybe I wouldn’t even be able to stay away from my mate.

Especially if my future fated mate is someone as beautiful as Kyrie. Dana is definitely much stronger than I would be.

I keep quickening my pace so she doesn’t end up running in front of me.

“Didn’t you think it was strange that Nox dropped us off a bit far away from the central cave?” She asks, taking me out of my thoughts.

Instead of returning to our new territory, Lexi suggested that we go to the central cave because Dana had already been away from Kyrie for a long time.

I agreed immediately with her. I couldn’t bear to see her suffer any longer. Not that I mind lying next to her so she can sleep without nightmares. The truth is, lying next to her and being close to her makes me also calm. Besides, she helps soothe my wolf. My wolf likes Dana.

But I’d be crazy if I told her that, after all, she’s not my fated mate, and she indeed doesn’t like me. I think if I told her about this, she would beat my head hard from here until we reached the central cave.

I saw how reluctant she was to accept that we would have to sleep together in the same bed at the motel.

I’m sure it was as embarrassing for her as it was for me to wake up, and we were hugging each other comfortably. But then, she let go of me, blushing as if I were on fire and burning her.

But deep inside me, I think that night was one of the best of my life. Again, not that I would tell her because it not only shows how pathetic my life is — because my best night was with someone who has a fated mate, and it’s not me, and we didn’t even have sex. This secret is something that I will never have the courage to reveal.

What I feel for her is so inexplicable. Goddess knows how much I would like her to be my fated mate because of the way I think about her, the way she makes me feel when she is near me, or even when she annoys me.

Regardless of how I feel about her, all I want most is her happiness.

Fuck, get a fucking grip!

“Letum?” she insists, and I remember that I didn’t answer her. Sometimes, I forget that people expect me to respond. I like to be quiet. I like listening to Dana talk.

“Uhm... Not really,” I reply with a shrug.

“I thought it was strange that Nox knows how to drive... Something about him seems off...” She bites her lower lip, holding tightly with both hands on the strap of her backpack.

“I’m sure there’s something he’s not telling us. But at the same time, I can’t think of anything harmful. I can’t feel anything hostile coming from him. Everything he does is just for the sake of helping,” I say the truth.

“Do you also feel something different about him? I mean... Lexi has her red wolf, which makes us all want to be close to her; our wolves feel safe with her. But with him, it’s different. He seems like... uhmm..... uhmm...” She frowns as if she is trying to find the right word and can’t find it.

“It’s as if he were...” she repeats.

“Heavenly?” I look at her with a raised eyebrow.

“Yes! That’s it. It’s as if something about Nox is sacred. His aura isn’t just Alpha’s aura. There’s something different. But I don’t know what it is. But I feel something pure, you know? Something so pure and divine that I’ve never seen before.”

“I feel the same way,” I tell her, but I don’t think she’s even listening as she starts running ahead, leaving me behind in desperation because the mountain where the central cave is located looms right in front of us.

I smile happily for her. At least in the next few days, I know she will be calm and happy. Even if it’s not in *my* arms.