Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 93

As I walk through the forest on this bright spring day, the warm noon sun filters through the lush green canopy, casting dappled shadows on the ground. The air is filled with the sweet scent of blooming wildflowers, and the chorus of birdsong is a soothing melody in my ears. But despite the beauty that surrounds me, I can't focus on anything other than the conversation I had with my parents.

I asked them to go back to the packhouse without me. I wanted to go back alone to try to organize my thoughts.

Their words echo in my mind. What they revealed definitely shattered my perception of myself.

How am I supposed to reconcile this new truth with the person I thought I was? It's like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole.

The reality of their revelation is that it changes everything, yet in another sense, it changes nothing. It's a damn paradox.

I thought I knew who I was, where I came from, but now I'm adrift in a sea of uncertainty. The path I walk through this vibrant forest mirrors the path I'm navigating in my mind, winding and twisting, with no clear destination in sight.

The rustling leaves and the babbling brook beside me should be comforting, but all I feel is a sense of confusion. It's as if the world has taken on a surreal quality, and I can't escape the gravity of their revelation.

Though I can't change the spell, it's a border that I now carry with me, and I wonder how it will shape my future, even if it hasn't changed the world around me.

Maybe I could just keep walking and hope that this beautiful forest will eventually drown out the noise of my racing thoughts as I mourn for a few minutes for not having the opportunity to meet my much-desired wolf.

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"You look like you've seen a ghost. Are you okay?" Jake asks me when I walk into the living room and find him, Jason, and Kaiden.

I try to clear my throat once again, swallowing a lump and replying, "Yeah... I'm fine."

Jay and Jake look at each other, and when Jay looks at Kaiden, I subtly shake my head at Jake so he doesn't ask me anything.

Not here. Not now.

He understands immediately and doesn't ask me anything. He knows I'll talk to him later. I go to Kaiden and selfishly hug him for comfort.

I know he will reject me when I say he can't mark me. I know I'll have to let him go. But right now, I can't stay away from him.

I need him to calm me down. *I need my mate.*

He hugs me and kisses my forehead, "Are you really okay, my little sun?" he asks me, close to my ear, and I nod my head. If I use my words, he will realize the lie immediately.

I try to take all this weight off my conscience when guiding Kaiden through my pack. Jay had expressed interest in joining us, but Jake had tactfully persuaded him to tackle another task for the day. He knew I needed some space.

I show my mate every corner that I find special. Along the way, I introduce Kaiden to various members of my pack, and I can't contain my smile when Kaiden doesn't know how to deal with their kindness, clearly unaccustomed to such a genuine reaction.

Our pack members are naturally curious, their eyes brimming with questions about the newcomer by my side. I do my best to keep the conversations brief, not wanting to overwhelm Kaiden or subject him to more discomfort than he may already be experiencing.

When we return to the packhouse, it's almost dinner time, in my hand I have a bouquet of flowers that I made along our walk, I picked up each different flower that I saw. Kaiden took some for me, and my heart felt happy for this simple gesture.

He looks so calm here. I wish he could stay like at Diamond Claw. Even with all his vigilance, always looking around us, he's much more relaxed here than I've ever seen him.

I place the flowers in a vase of water next to my dresser. When I start to arrange the flowers to make them more stunning, I feel Kaiden's arms grabbing my body from behind.

I feel his warmness and immediately lean back, resting my head on his body, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. My room smells really good of flowers, everything seems fresh, and the wind coming through the window creates a perfect atmosphere.

I turn to face him, and he leans in to kiss me.

He kisses me like a starving man, deep and rough and frenzy.

I easily get lost in the feeling of his lips against mine, in the possessiveness of his touching me, as if I were only his, as if he has no intention of leaving me.

I pray so much that he stays like this. Please, goddess Selena.

He leans me back along with his body, and we lie together on my bed without taking our lips from each other.

His hands roam my body, desperate to touch me. He lifts my dress, and I feel his hard cock between my legs. My legs grab his hips and my shameless hands go to his shirt and I take it off, breaking our kiss.

He chuckles, he knows I'm just as desperate for him as he is for me.

In the morning, he almost marked me while he fucked me hard in the sacred trees. I kind of wish I could go back to that moment, when I didn't know anything and the possibility of him marking me was still something viable.

Now, that is impossible. I cannot risk the safety of my pack or the sacred trees.

This is non-negotiable. Their safety comes first.

Kaiden seems to read my thoughts as he kisses exactly where he was planning to mark me earlier, where my neck meets my shoulder.

"I can't wait any longer, my little sun, I need to mark you," he says so quickly that I almost can't assimilate what he says, and immediately I try to push him by his chest with my hands.

"No!" I say in a hurry, before he bites me.

"What?" Kaiden asks furiously, I can see the frustration in his eyes as he tries to calm down.

"Please, I don't want to." I lie. It's such a dirty lie... It's literally the second thing I want most because the first is to meet my wolf.

"What do you mean you don't want to?" He moves away from me a little to look at me better, and I bite my lower lip, not knowing how to explain, not knowing how to lie to him.

"Uhmm... I don't want you to mark me... I was thinking, it's better if we stay like this..." I say softly, looking away from his penetrating gaze.

He pulls my face with his calloused hand until I look into his eyes again. "Is it because you still think about Chad?" He asks me so seriously that I get scared.

"What? No!" I try to explain to him and get up, sitting opposite him on my bed.

"Don't lie to me, Katie." The tone of his voice could pierce concrete.

"I'm not lying!" I say it, but I stop to think... this is actually a great excuse. He won't ask me for details if he thinks I don't want to be marked because of Chad.

"I'm confused, Kaiden. What Chad and I had..." I know what we had was wonderful, but that's not the reason I don't want to be marked by him, and Kaiden's look of betrayal breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.

"You're mine! I don't give two shits about how you feel about him," he says through his teeth as he squeezes my face with his firm, calloused hand.

My lips part with the firmness of his touch, he throws me back, making me lie on my back on the bed again and suddenly he's already crowding me.

I feel suffocated by his possessiveness, but he doesn't even let me breathe properly because his lips devour me.

He pulls both my wrists and holds them firmly over my head with his huge hand.

"You're mine, and I'm going to mark you whether you want it or not."