Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 214: Book 2 - Chapter 47

***The Warrior***

Every damn memory of her is like a punch in the gut.

I hear she’s gone, and it’s like my whole world’s been flipped upside down.

It’s only now that I realize that I love her. I already knew that I loved her, but I hadn’t realized that I was in love with her.

Dana was the one I loved, but I never said it out loud. And now, it’s like I’m drowning in all the things I wish I’d said.

I never dared to dream that I would have anything with her because she already had a fated mate. Yet, she invited me to have sex with them.

They wanted me there. *Dana* wanted me there.

Before she left, we shared so many things... She told me so many things about Kyrie, such as how much her little witch was her world and how much she wanted to keep her little witch safe.

Fuck, Dana! Why are you gone?

I felt in my gut before she went to the central cave that I shouldn’t have let her go alone.

I keep replaying our last kiss at the small hidden waterfall. It’s burned into my mind, reminding me of what I lost.

Why couldn’t I just tell her that I loved her?

Now, I’m stuck in this whirlwind of regret and what-ifs. It’s like a constant battle inside my head, tearing me apart. And I can’t shake this feeling that I let her down, that I missed my chance to make things right.

I wasn’t there to protect her. I am a warrior, I was born to protect.

And I didn’t protect the person I cared most about in the world.

I keep punching the tree in front of me over and over again. My fists are already tired and bleeding, but I can’t stop.

Every time I close my eyes, I see her beautiful face, and it’s like a knife twisting in my heart. The weight of all the unsaid words hangs heavy on my chest, suffocating me with every breath.

I wish I could turn back time, just for a moment, to tell her how I really felt and simply stop her from traveling, or I should have gone with her and protected her because I would rather die with her than be alive now without her.

But it’s too late now, and all I’m left with is this unbearable pain and the echo of her laughter haunting me.

I never thought losing her would hurt this much.

Tears run down my face, I can’t even breathe properly, I’m panting. It’s like a part of me died with her, and I’m left here, drowning in a sea of sadness and regrets, wondering if I’ll ever find peace again.

🐺 🐺 🐺

I admit that I freaked out about Dana’s death.

I wasn’t the only one; Lexi went crazy, too. I know how awful Nox was, but he was trying to be strong for her.

I couldn’t even enter the house we were in because everything reminded me of her. So, before the sun went down, I had my backpack ready.

Lexi wanted to come with me to the central cave to tell everyone what happened, but later, when she was calmer, Nox and I convinced her that traveling while she was pregnant would be dangerous.

Nige was feeling better because Lexi healed him, and his useless mate was by his side as if she hadn’t offered herself to me.

I did everything so automatically that I didn’t even mind bringing food for the trip; luckily, Nox put something in my backpack.

It’s been four days since I’ve been traveling alone. I could already be closer to the central cave if I let my wolf control me.

However, I think I accepted the responsibility of bringing them the bad news because I needed to leave the new territory; I needed to be alone.

Everything reminds me of Dana. With each house built, I remember her urgency in making everything work.

So, in the end, she can’t even enjoy it.

Fuck! I kick a rock that lies ahead on my path.

I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve stopped to vent my anger on the trees along the way, and I didn’t care if I was going to leave a trail for any rogue to find me.

I don’t give two shits. To be honest, a good fight would be nice right now.

If I find the motherfuckers who killed Dana, I swear I’d die, but I’ll kill them all.

I don’t know how I’m going to tell Kyrie that her fated mate died.

Maybe she already felt it through their mate bond, or not, since she is not a werewolf but a witch.

She’s going to be so devastated...

I couldn’t protect Dana, but I will protect Kyrie with my life.

I don’t even need to be a genius to know what Dana would want.

She’d want her witch safe!

That was what she repeated like a mantra every day to gain strength to build our new pack from scratch.

I can’t stop repeating her voice in my head.

*I hear her say to Lexi, “You know... It’s my dream to give her a home. My mate has been through so much pain...” Dana says emotionally, seemingly at a loss for words.*

*I notice that by their silence, she continues talking to Lexi via mindlink.*

*And then Dana chuckles, “It’s my biggest dream to grow old with my little witch.”*

*“And you will accomplish it,” I enter the cave and tell her, carrying a bucket with water.*

*Dana smiles and then wipes the tears from her cheeks, “You should mind your own business, Letum!” she says and sticks her tongue out at me, taking the bucket from my hand.*

*I roll my eyes. Little did she know how much I dreamed about that tongue of hers for the next few days.*

My mind turns back to the path I’m wandering. Maybe I’ll arrive at the central cave tomorrow, or who knows, it might take me longer.

The pain is too much. I don’t care about anything right now.

I know I should be sad for everyone who died, and I am.

But Dana was the person I loved the most.

It’s like I’m asphyxiating, suffocating in all the things I should have said but never did. And now, she’s gone, and I’ll never get the chance to tell her how I really felt.

It’s eating me up inside, and I don’t know how to make it stop.

I wipe away my tears to clear my vision because the path ahead became blurry once more.

I look up, the sky is covered in clouds without any stars. It’s already past sunset.

*Please, Moon Goddess, let me see her again.*

Maybe in some other universe, we’d be fated mates. We’d meet with a different face, voice, and name but with the same love. Because I was in love with her.

🐺 🐺 🐺

I thought I would arrive at the central cave the next day, but it ended up taking me three more days to get there.

I know I should have gone faster to share the news and even go back to talk to Lexi, but I needed some time for myself.

There were moments when I even thought about not going back...

I climb the mountain where is located the central cave. My stomach growls with hunger. I don’t remember when the last time I ate was. Maybe the day before yesterday?

I can see Beta at the entrance to the central cave, totally unaware of the awful news I carry with me.

I sigh, already getting closer to him.

I take a deep breath, and suddenly, a sweet smell invades my senses.

I take another deep breath, and my head abruptly jerks from side to side as I try to figure out where this wonderful smell is coming from.

I hear several voices, voices that I don’t recognize.

Could it be from the people that Alpha and Luna rescued?

I start walking faster and enter the central cave, following the smell of cinnamon and blueberries, which gets stronger and stronger as I go deeper into the cave.

Beta tries to talk to me, but I completely ignore him, just like I ignore the people around me I know and those around me that I have never seen.

And then she turns to me, seeming to feel the pull as strong as I do.

I immediately catch her gaze across the crowded cave, and I walk numbly toward her.

Time seems to stand still as my wolf howls with happiness in my mind. It’s like everything around us fades into the background, and all I can see is her. A spark ignites deep within me.

My heart starts racing, pounding against my chest as if trying to break free — a rush of adrenaline courses through my veins, electrifying every fiber of my being.

I can’t tear my eyes away from hers, drawn to the intensity of her gaze. The way she looks at me, it seems like she feels the same.

“Mate!” I say breathlessly without thinking, looking straight into Kyrie’s beautiful eyes as she strokes her little pregnant belly.