Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 179: Book 2 - Chapter 12

What is happening?

His lips fit perfectly against mine despite the brutality of the rhythm of our kiss.

I’m so angry at him!

He releases his lips from mine and hugs me.

Unlike my hot body, boiling with anger, his body is cold, calming me down immediately.

He hugs me tightly, resting his chin on my head. As stunned as I am, my anger prevails. I keep pushing him away, but eventually, my arms give way because, just like Tyra, I can’t resist his affection.

I don’t know how long I hugged him. Two minutes or ten, honestly, I can’t tell the difference.

I just know that I have never calmed down so quickly in my entire life.

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This time, it was inevitable not to stop to rest. After this attack, I was apprehensive about continuing without letting them recover.

After finding shelter in a cave not so far away, another one we had already been to before, it was more than welcome to remember that this cave had thermal water since everyone was bloodied from the battle.

However, while Letum and Dana were taking a shower, I took the opportunity to clean the cave with Prince. We made space so we could at least lie down and have a small fire.

Every time I tried to pick up a stone on the way, he stopped me and picked it up himself. I’m still mad at him, but what else can I do?

There’s no point in saying anything to him because he doesn’t understand.

I literally hit him. What else should I do?

Dana is the first to arrive at the path where the hot spring is. Even though she is tired, she looks much more relaxed and doesn’t smell like blood. “I think I found my favorite cave,” she says, dressed in clean clothes.

Letum appears right behind her. Despite having an unreadable expression, I feel in his aura how tired he is, “I’m going to hunt for something for us to eat,” he tells me.

“Wait. Let me bathe first. Get some rest,” I command. He responds with a curt nod.

I head towards the hot springs with my arms crossed. The path is a little dark, but Letum lit a candle near where they showered so we can see around us.

I don’t even need to call him. I hear Prince’s footsteps right behind me.

I control myself not to smile because I know he’s following me. I keep my arms crossed because I need a lot of control to stop my fingers from touching my lips.

I can still *feel* his lips.

That kiss... How do I stop my heart racing so much every time I remember that moment?

How can I not let my guard down when that kiss was the best kiss of my life?

Even the temperature on this side of the cave is warmer; the space isn’t that big, but it’s enough for three people to bathe in peace.

I take off my clothes, still without looking at him. It’s hard to look him in the eye after he kisses me. I don’t know why this is happening because I’m definitely not shy, but something about him makes me feel... different.

Maybe shame? Shame for having enjoyed something so much that I supposedly shouldn’t have. After having my heart broken, I decided to wait for my fated mate. I don’t want that rollercoaster of suffering again.

I get into the water and sit in the deepest part, which isn’t much as it goes slightly up to my breasts.

From the corner of my eye, I see him taking off his clothes, too, but he doesn’t come in with me.

Don’t tell me you’re avoiding me now, Prince...

He goes to where my soap is and takes it along with my bath loofah. I gave my things to Dana when they came to take a shower and left them here for me. On the side are Letum and Dana’s things, Prince doesn’t touch their things, he only takes what’s mine.

Then he comes towards me. My shoulders go back when I feel him looking directly into my eyes.

While my eyes are admiring his muscular body, damn, he’s sexy as hell.

He kneels in front of me, his huge cock almost hits my face, and then he starts soaping my shoulders. I flinched at his sudden touch because the other time we took a shower, I was the one who began washing him and not the other way around.

However, I enjoy his big hands running over my body, my neck, my shoulders, my arms, my breasts, that’s it, Prince, *keep going*.

My head falls back, and I close my eyes; his touch is so good, his skin, the pressure he applies, it’s all so perfect, so pleasurable.

When he touches my waist, I suddenly open my eyes and mentally slap myself to wake up to reality.

I stand up a little more to give him space, he continues cleaning me, paying particular attention to the parts of my body that have blood on them, between my fingers, my arm, my feet.

I almost moan at how relaxing it is. My body has already recovered from the holes the rogues’ filthy claws made in my back.

He puts the bath loofah away, washes off the soap, and then foams his hands. Next, he starts washing my face, and I closely observe every detail of his face, how much he lightly bites his lower lip to concentrate, how much he shakes his head to throw his long hair back when it falls into his eyes...

He washes around my mouth, and I see the foam turn red because there is still blood on my face. Just like there is on his cheek after our kiss.

I look at his arm where the rogue dared to hurt him, but there is only blood. The wound was already closed when we kissed.

It’s funny because I don’t remember trying to heal him at that moment; just by touching me, he was automatically healed. Maybe I did it unconsciously when we hugged. I don’t know, everything with him is so... mysterious.

When he starts to use his hands to rinse me, I lower myself into the water and rinse myself. I have to control myself. I can’t fall into his spell.

Does he really think I’m going to fall in love with him after one insignificant kiss? Ha.

Not me, not in this life.

When I finish rinsing, I see that he has started to clean his face by himself. This made me a little angry. How dare he clean me up and then not want me to do the same to him?

He rinses his face, and then he turns to me. He holds my face with both of his hands and kisses my forehead gently.

That is precisely what we did last time. Prince just wiped his face because he wouldn’t get me dirty.

My heart races, and I feel my face flush with his sweet care, ‘What did you say? *I’m not going to fall in love with him after one insignificant kiss*,’ Tyra repeats my thought, imitating my voice. ‘Humans!’

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***The Traveler***

Even though my girl cleans me up like she did last time, she doesn’t kiss me on the forehead. On the contrary, as soon as she finishes, she moves away from me.

I do not like this. She hasn’t looked me in the eye since our lips met.

I look at her sitting not so far away from me, with her light blue eyes anywhere but on me, with an angry look on her face. Her blonde hair falls effortlessly down her back, the same way I left it after washing it.

I do not like this distance at all.

I want to see her smile, just like my girl smiled when she found the little flower I placed in her path. When I saw her putting the flower in her hair, I knew it was worth putting one in all directions because I didn’t know where she would go.

I splash water towards her with my hands. The water falls on her bare breasts, she gasps but doesn’t look at me.

I splash more water on her. This time, it doesn’t just fall on her breasts; it also falls on her arms and a little on her cheek. She says something, but I can’t understand it.

However, I happily giggle because I make her look at me, even if with her not so happy face.

She gets up to get out of the water, but I don’t let her. I pull her by the arm, and when she gets closer, I hold her by the waist and pull her onto my lap.

When her legs wrap around my hips, she looks at me with wide eyes. She doesn’t say anything, and neither do I let her because I hold her face with my hands and bring my lips to hers.

I don’t know what I’m doing. I feel this enormous desire to simply be close to her, to touch her, to not leave her side at all.

When she magically shifted into a wolf and then into a woman, I couldn’t tell which of the two I thought was more beautiful.

Her lips are as hot as her body. I hold my girl firmly by the hair while my tongue plays with hers in a way that I don’t know how I know, but I do it anyway.

I feel something in me get hard. I bring her body closer to mine.

She makes some sounds as if she enjoys it; her hand runs over my body again like when she was bathing me.

But out of nowhere, she abruptly gets up, gets out of the water, and starts drying herself without looking at me.

I feel my heart hurt. I don’t know what I did wrong.

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***The Healer***

I swear my legs almost give out under me.

I’ve never put on an outfit so quickly in my entire life for fear I simply couldn’t resist him.

How does he know how to give good kisses? For Goddess’ sake!

Prince can’t talk at all, but damn, he *is* a good kisser.

As soon as he does the same, we go to where Dana and Letum are.

Letum stands up, “I’m going to hunt something now. Do you want to go with me?” He looks at Prince.

What? “No!” I say.

Letum looks at me, “I saw that he watches and imitates everything you do. It will be good for him to learn how to hunt. I can teach him.”

Letum volunteering to teach him something?

I look at him to start giving fake reasons why Prince can’t go because I don’t want to talk about my own selfish reasons why I don’t want him away from me. But before I say anything, Letum mindlink me, ‘I’ll take care of him, don’t worry,’ his face is unreadable as always, but his words calm me down.

“Okay...” I turn to Prince and hold his hand, “Go with Letum. Do everything he tells you,” I say with my Alpha aura.

He doesn’t understand, so I push him closer to Letum. He is a little taller than Letum but definitely more muscular.

Letum starts to leave the cave, and I push Prince so he can follow Letum. In some strange way of how it works, he follows Letum, and the two leave the cave.

I trust Letum with my life. I know he will protect Prince. But I’m still a little scared if something happens to them...

I use the time they take to start preparing where we will sleep and the fire.

I sit next to Dana, and she starts talking to me; I partially listen while staying alert for any danger at the cave entrance.

After not long, but faster than I imagined, they arrive.

Prince is the first to appear. He comes straight to me with a smile on his handsome face, kneels down, and lifts the dead rabbit with his hand, offering it to me.

“Aww, he brought it to you as a gift. I remember the first time I gave my mate a bear. It’s her favorite meat, you know...” Dana says, but her voice fades away as I can only pay attention to his smile — those adorable dimples.

Letum’s voice enters my mind. He must have realized that I zoned out, ‘He did a good job. I knew he would learn fast. Also, when we returned to the cave, he almost came running to you. I didn’t have to tell him the way back, Lexi,’ he says, ‘I don’t know who he is... if he weren’t so... innocent, I’d say he was hiding something.’

His words wake me up, and I look at him while Dana continues talking in the background as she prepares our dinner. ‘I’m pretty sure he’s hiding something,’ I mindlink to Letum.

Letum looks at Prince, who has stopped smiling and is looking at me with a confused face, looking at the rabbit in his hand and then at me again. He makes a sad face, and I roll my eyes and abruptly pull the rabbit out of his hand. ‘If he is hiding something, I don’t think he even knows what it is,’ these are Letum’s last words via mindlink.

After we ate, I took the first watch again. Dana and Letum are sleeping, and I try to stay alert while millions of thoughts invade my head.

Prince tugs me closer. His head is in my lap, he hasn’t slept yet. I start to stroke his hair.

Goddess help me.

More and more, I feel this pull to stay by his side. I’m starting to go wild.

I don’t want to succumb to this feeling. I need to keep avoiding it. But how to do it?

I look down at him, and I’m instantly consumed by those dark blue irises gazing up at me. So carefully. So lovingly. He watches me like I’m the only other person in the world. Like every move I make is the most interesting, most outrageous thing he’s ever witnessed.

“Stop looking at me like that,” I murmur.

He doesn’t answer, but he smiles, flashing his dimples.

I bite my lip, mind filling with fantasies of us together.

My Prince calms me down just by being near me.

*My*?

Dana sits up suddenly, breaking me out of my thoughts. She wipes the tears from her face. ‘Nightmare again?’ I mindlink to her.

‘Yes,’ she answers. ‘At least we are now closer to the central cave. I think we’ll get there tomorrow night if we go at this pace.’

Despite the cruel pace at which I’ve been making them suffer, she seems excited to find her mate. I nod, and she sits down because it’s her turn to watch.

I continue stroking my Prince’s head, who now has his eyes closed, sleeping. ‘Are you still mad at him?’ Dana asks.

My silence is an answer for her. ‘You like him, Lexi. There’s no point in denying it.’

Again, I remain silent. But she continues, ‘Tyra likes him too...’

‘I don’t like him,’ I lie to her, ‘It’s just... he almost died.’

‘Lexi, it wasn’t your fault. The same thing that happened to Sandy won’t happen to him.’

I stop stroking my Prince’s head immediately and look at her with so much anger that my body immediately stiffens. ‘Don’t. Say. Her. Name.’

Dana raises her hands as if surrendering and then lowers them. But, like always, she can’t stop talking. Dana shakes her head, ‘It’s obvious that you like him, Lexi. *Look at your reaction!* I think–’ she stops talking when my furious eyes meet hers, and I almost get up to fight her. She knows how much it hurts me to touch Sandy’s name.

Dana looks at me like she wants to apologize, but I block her from mindlinking me.

I lay down and try to sleep, clenching my teeth as I feel the bitter taste in my mouth of the lies I say about my feelings for Prince and the truths of her words.

But Dana was wrong about one thing. Sandy’s death was my fault. My sweet *Protector*.