Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 147

***Maia***

"Hi," I say, looking into his eyes. I'm sitting across from him, just a table between the two of us.

After Katie talked to her mate, he allowed me to visit my fated mate.

One more time, I'm here, looking at his face, which today is without the black eye it had yesterday, trying to do my part.

"Hi," he says as he folds his hands in his lap. He's so handsome. The first thing I noticed about him, after his wonderful scent of pine cone and cedar, was how hot he was.

Goddess knows how hard I'm trying for our mate bond to happen.

Every day before I go to work I come here to see him, some days I come after work too. Today is one of those days; after I leave here, I'm going straight to the packhouse to cry, as always.

However, despite my numerous visits, Chad doesn't open up much to me. We hardly talk, and most of the time, he spends in silence or answering my questions. I feel so bad, I feel like he's being forced to receive my visits.

"How are you today?" he says, and my eyes meet his.

"Uhm, fine... What about you? At least you don't have another black eye to match the one from yesterday," I say, and I internally beat myself up; every time I get nervous, I say nonsense.

Who says this? Ugh!

He smiles at the corner of his mouth, looking amused. Goddess, how beautiful he is, "Yeah, I'm better. You look beautiful in this dress today," he says, and I blush.

Moe is screaming in my mind to go to him and throw myself on top of him. I try to control my mate bond instincts and just smile and say thanks.

I take advantage of the moment and ask him what I've been wanting to ask for at least a week now, "Do you know when you're going to get out of here?"

His smile fades, and he answers, "I don't know, Maia. It's not like I have control over my stay here."

"I know," I say, looking away.

Suddenly, the door opens, and one of the guards enters and turns to him, "Chad, I came to inform you that the Alpha has allowed your aunt to visit you," she says, placing a hand on my mate's shoulder, and I clench my jaw in anger, "as soon as this visit is over, your aunt comes in," he looks at her as she says and then she leaves the room.

I hate our mate bond. I hate feeling like this, jealous of my fated mate for such small reasons.

I had to control Mae, so she wouldn't rip that bitch's head off. Did she have to touch my mate?

But what impresses me most is the fact that Moe doesn't care about Katie. My wolf was supposed to be jealous of her, but she doesn't feel anything, which is completely contrary to any female who comes close to him during my visits.

I've already reflected on this and asked Mae several times, but she only responds that she doesn't see Katie as a threat.

"I just want to know if you can see a future for us," I ask in a whisper.

I still can't forgive what he did to Katie, and I wonder if he'll be a good mate...

If he will be a good father...

I'm still not sure if I want the mate bond with him, and to make matters worse, he doesn't do anything to assure me that he wants our mate bond.

"Maia... I don't know what to tell you," he says with a sad look, "I–"

"Are you even interested in me?" I cut him off angrily.

"You're incredible, beautiful, wonderful... and that's why I feel even worse. I don't feel like I deserve you. You deserve a better mate, someone who didn't make the mistakes I made," he says, looking at his hands in his lap.

"But I'm here!" I snarl at him, "I'm here trying!" I hold myself back from getting up, "I'm trying to make this work, but it feels like I'm in this boat alone! Every time I come here, you don't seem to want me around–"

"That's not it, Maia!" He cuts me off, looking at me.

"But that's what it looks like, Chad. You're not trying to get out of here. You've already accepted that everything you did determined your future!" I yell at him, standing up this time, "You're not trying hard enough for us! For our mate bond," I yell, finally getting out of my chest everything I wanted to say to him. My cheek suddenly becomes wet with my tears.

He stays silent, and that irritates me even more. He was supposed to be trying to win me, he was supposed to make an effort for me, after what he did, he was supposed to even try harder than me to make our mate bond work.

However, it is the opposite.

And fuck! I got tired.

I can not take it anymore! I've been in this situation for weeks.

"I changed packs just to be close to you. I'm here just to make our mate bond work. I asked you to live in my pack when you left here, and you refused! You're not trying, Chad. You're not doing the bare minimum!"

"I'm sorry, Maia. I didn't want you to feel like this, but with everything I've been through, it's the best I can do," he says, still looking at his hands. Then he looks at me with a certain anger in his eyes. "I wasn't expecting to meet my fated mate right now! I wasn't expecting you!" He says as if he's not happy to have found me.

That's it! That's more than enough for me!

"You know what? That's enough for me! I don't deserve to be treated like this! My parents didn't raise me so well for me to go through this kind of shit. I, Maia–"

"Wait, Maia, let's calm down, let's talk–" he cuts me off.

"We have nothing more to talk about. I'm sorry, Chad, but I deserve someone better. I deserve someone who fights for me and not someone who doesn't even care about *being alive*!" I snarl at him, and I know what I say is cruel by the look of sadness and guilt he looks at me.

"You had days to talk to me, I was patient with you as much as I could, but everything has a limit, Chad," I say with resentment. Mae cries inside me but doesn't stop me, "I, Maia Thompson, reject you, Chad, as my fated mate," I say, and immediately, he starts to wince in pain; my heart starts to hurt, too.

As I'm Alpha's daughter, I don't need to say his last name to break the mate bond.

"Reject me too, Chad; it's the least you can do!"

Tears start to come out of his eyes, and he makes sounds of pain, "Please, Maia–"

"End your and my suffering, Chad!" I cry, too.

"I, Chad Miller, r-reject you, Maia Thompson, a-as my f-fated mate," as soon as the words are finished from his mouth, I feel something breaking inside me, something so strong that it makes me want to sit on the chair so I don't fall on the floor.

But I just ran away without looking back.

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I park my car at the packhouse without even knowing how I get here. I take a moment to dry my eyes, I came in such a hurry that everything was a blur.

I feel so sad for rejecting him. For weeks, I dreamed and idealized our lives together. And now everything is lost! New tears replace the ones I wiped away.

But I can't deny it. Part of me feels a little more relief than sadness. I know I did the right thing. I did what was best for me. If I didn't do what's best for me, no one would do it for me.

I dry the tears again and take a deep breath. When I see that I have calmed down, I get out of the car in a hurry and enter the packhouse. I run towards my room, but something catches my attention.

I hide behind the wall to hear what sounds like Kaiden's Gamma threatening someone, "Don't lie to me! I know it was you who made my Luna cry earlier!" she snarls, and I hear a gasp as if she has caught the other person, "I don't know what you said, but if you come near Katie again I will rip your neck apart" she threatens the other person.

I'm stunned and can't believe that she is defending Katie, I thought she hated Katie.

I smile as I continue walking to my room, this time more sure of my decision.

Katie will be safe, she has people to support her here.

At a glance, I see that Gamma is threatening Laila, but I don't stop; I continue on my way.

I go into my room and start filling my bags with my belongings. Now that Katie is pregnant, I can see clearly what I want. She is so happy with her mate, and that is exactly what I want for myself.

I'm not going to lower my head and kneel to a man who doesn't make an effort for me.

I don't want to say goodbye to Katie or anyone else, so I write her a note and leave it in her room, which isn't too far from mine.

Then I grab my things and run towards my car without stopping and ignoring anyone I see on the way.

I tried. Goddess knows how hard I tried to adapt here at the pack. Goddess knows how hard I tried to make our mate bond work.

I drive towards my pack with a lump in my throat, just thinking about how I found Chad in the wrong place at the wrong time.