Falling in love with my Ex's Alpha Chapter 53

***Katherine***

For an entire week, they traversed treacherous terrains, driven by an unyielding determination to fulfill the first round.

But for me, it was more than a week. It was a small eternity within seven days.

I can't describe how much I have died all these days. Each day seemed worse than the next.

I thought they would go on a mission, and then I would wait patiently for the result.

But that was not what happened.

On the first day, when I said goodbye to Chad and Kaiden, I already started to feel that a part of me was no longer with me. And this feeling only got worse. I missed Kaiden so much that I couldn't eat or drink water properly. I was totally in a state of sadness for being away from him. Even at the hospital, where I usually get super excited, I had to try hard to attend every day.

Why am I feeling this way? It feels like an obsession with Kaiden, like he's a part of me, and if I don't get that part back, I'm going to die any moment.

Why did he steal *my heart*, I mean, my scarf?

Every night when I finally managed to fall asleep, I just had nightmares, most of them boiled down to me suffering while I saw Kaiden hurt from afar, and I couldn't help him. I always woke up crying and with a tightness in my chest.

And this feeling of concern was only heightened by the lack of news from them. Nobody knows how the first round is going on, but they know they are traveling.

Jason asked me several times why I was so depressed, but I didn't know what to say because, honestly, I didn't even know.

I just feel an ache in my heart, like it's a wound that won't heal, and from time to time, I remember the kiss we shared, the tenderness of our goodbye hug. These memories made my heart stop hurting for a little bit, but they didn't heal my pain.

That's when I realized. As an epiphany, I realized that I didn't feel that way about Chad. I was worried for his well-being just like I was worried for the other warriors.

But it didn't even come close to the longing I felt for Kaiden.

I feel lost because I realized that I can no longer deceive myself. I like Kaiden, I want Kaiden, I need Kaiden.

I can't be with Chad anymore, I need to break up with him.

I won't tell Kaiden how I feel because I'm afraid he'll cancel the contract and walk away from me.

He's with me just because of the contract. The funny thing is that, before, I wanted to cancel this contract at all costs, and now it contains a legal reason to be around him without guilt.

I don't care what he thinks of me, I know we'll never be together, but I'm going to hold onto this little resource I have. This is my only hope.

I know I sound crazy, maybe even obsessive, but I've never been so sure of what I feel, and my intuition tells me I'm on the right path.

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Finally, I'm in the car with Jason and Jake, heading toward the Crescent Moon pack. The big day of the first round result has arrived. My heart feels like it's going to come out of my mouth.

I woke up earlier than usual today with so much expectation to see Kaiden, I was already dressed up at least an hour before we left. I wore a short white dress with pink flowers and white sneakers with pink socks. I wanted to wear something more formal, but I was in a hurry, and the weather was scorching. It's the end of spring.

With Jason's help, we gathered some people in the pack, and yesterday, we prepared a feast to wait for the warriors. We decorated one of the parks in the center of the pack. I had this idea to welcome them back because I imagined they were tired and must not have eaten well during this mission.

I was surprised when Jason told me that they don't usually do this, but he was very excited about the idea. In my pack, we always do this. I thought it was a common thing here, too.

Everyone was very excited about my idea and put in a lot of effort. When we left the pack today, I left a few people in charge of finalizing the event while I went to Crescent Moon.

I'm going to miss the Diamond Claw people a lot when I go to my pack, I'm starting to bond with a lot of people, and it's going to be hard to stay away from them.

"How long before we get there?" I asked Jake.

"For the hundredth time, KitKatie, we're almost there," he answered.

"It's been half an hour since you said that," I pouted and crossed my arms.

Jason laughed and said. "You're very anxious, little Luna," he has no idea how much! He continued, "Look, we're finally here!"

He pointed at the sign on the front of the pack, and my heart skipped a beat.

I will finally see him. I hope he pretends he wants another hug. I wished internally as I smiled.

After we parked the car, we headed towards a forest, as we were informed that the competitors were in the middle of it.

We walked for less than ten minutes and finally began to see in an open field in the forest several human bodies piled up. I started to get scared.

How was this mission? Are all of them alive? My heart almost stopped for a moment.

I noticed that each alpha was in front of a pile of dead bodies, and around it were their warriors. Wylder was talking, and apparently, we were late because he had already said who was eliminated from the tournament. Jake pointed to the three eliminated, and I saw them furious, staring at the other competitors.

The aura of the place is morbid, I feel a sadness that I can't explain. This feeling diminished when I finally saw Kaiden, he was a little far from us, his pile of bodies was visibly more than twice as big as the others. I was shocked when I saw it.

"In second place is... Alpha Benjamin," Wylder said, and far away from where we were standing, I saw Ben celebrating. He's so far away, I thought to myself that in the end, I'll go over there and congratulate him.

"First place is... Alpha Kaiden," Wylder revealed, even though everyone here already knew that Kaiden would win.

Immediately, the three of us ran towards Kaiden's group to celebrate with them. We passed in front of several other competitors, and I tried to ignore the shudder I felt at seeing so many people dead at once.

And I hope I never see this again.

All the way as I ran towards them, I only had one focus: Kaiden!

I didn't know what to do when I got close to the group. I don't know how to act. Do I hug him?

My eyes were fixed on his eyes, I ignored my entire back. He was dressed in tattered clothes and looked very tired.

But that didn't stop him from running to me and answering my mind's question about what to do when I got close to him.

In one movement, he hugged me and spun me around in the air. My dress opened and flapped in the air as he spun me around. But I didn't care.

The world around me seemed to disappear as I was finally in the warmth of his embrace. I finally felt at peace. That's what I was missing, that's the Kaiden I needed.

We held each other for a few seconds, and then, despite my reluctant body, I let go of him because I had to say hello to everyone.

And so I did, I hugged Chad and the other warriors. Chad looked sad, but he didn't seem upset with me, which made me feel less guilty.

"What were the criteria for the first test?" Jake asked as I looked at the pile of bodies, several faces were deformed, most had their throats ripped out.

"The task was to kill as many rogues as possible," Chad replied, and the world stopped.

But this time, it wasn't for happiness.

My eyes widened and started to fill with tears. Immediately, my hand went to my mouth to cover my shock.

Because in front of me lay Becca's body, severely injured and lifeless.