The Tripartite Mate Bond Chapter 29: CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

As he walked away from the hospital ward I was placed in, I suddenly felt tired. All of this was driving me crazy and I just wanted a moment to myself. Axel didn't understand that though because he came towards me.

He went on his knees, shocking me.

“Axel, get up! What is the problem?” I asked in surprise.

“Look, I know you can change his mind. We are not going to disturb you or anything, you will be his mate but we don't need to be cut off as well. I don't even know what the hell I'm asking you to do because this is all insane but please, I can't lose you” he said, his demeanor one of pain.

I've never seen this version of him. To me he was always strong and powerful but right now, he looked like he depended on me for something and that in itself was strange. I didn't consider myself as important to anyone. To make everything worse, what he was asking for made no sense to me. All these werewolf traditions and culture was strange to me but from the little I knew, it was impossible to remain mated to three people but be “married” to one. I don’t know what they actually call it.

“But that means I'll keep feeling like this with all of you. It's not gonna be fair to him. You can be with the girl you were with and Ares wants you to continue the bloodline. It's the best option” I replied.

“I don't want anyone else. I'm so sorry for fucking up the chance I had with you right before I even got a chance to prove myself to you. I lost my shit that night and got drunk. I woke up and I was so disgusted with myself and I didn't know how to take it all back. So I just went on the offensive, looking for a way to make you seem bad as well so I could live with myself.”

“But you could have just come and explained to me afterwards. We weren't mated at that point, I would have been able to forgive you but you made me feel like you didn't want me at all”

“I want you, Aurora. So much. I've never wanted anyone this much, the thought of losing you scares the shit out of me. In my mind I know it's the best option to cut all ties and let you go but I can't do this again. When Fang comes to see you so we can figure out more about your identity, I'll have to face the reality of my past and possible future, none with me. I lost her and I have now lost you because of my foolishness.” He said dejectedly

I didn't know how to help him, I didn't even know what to say. I realized I didn't hate him as much as I should and I guess this happened from the moment I woke up. My emotions were distorted and I couldn't find it in me to hate any of them.

“I’m sorry Axel, I do forgive you but I really can't do anything about this. It's not my place, you guys have never really given me much power to decide anything. If I tell him this, I fear it'll be seen as a betrayal and I'm spending the rest of my life with this man, I don't want to start off on the wrong foot” I said.

Almost immediately, someone tried opening the door and he quickly got up from the floor and he ran out, nearly knocking Juno down.

She was carrying a large tray of food and was obviously shocked at Axel's dramatic exit.

“What’s up with him?” She asked.

“Well, he wants to remain connected to me even though we are not together but Kane's not taking that. He believes since they fucked up their chances, they should cut all ties with me and we can go on our own” i explained.

She dropped the tray on a bedside table and brought it for me.

“I have never heard of an already established bond being broken, Aury. I doubt it'll happen without consequences. Do they think it's just gonna snap like that?” She shook her head as she brought out the water from a bag.

“I'm really confused. I wish there was a way to make this work”

“I fear it might hurt more than they let on. In fact, breaking the mate bond ties with one person may not have severe consequences, but two? I don't know.” she said sadly.

“Wait, what? I'm familiar with pain but will they willingly put me through something like that?”

“Don't think so much about that. I'm sure they'll find a way to make it painless for you.”

“I'm also scared the twins might hate me after everything. The bond opened a side of them that I like a lot. Cutting it so abruptly, I don't know” I said.

“The only scenario where everyone will be happy is if you accept the three of them,” she said, a weird look in her eyes.

I was dumbfounded at her suggestion.

“Three of them? At once?” I asked incredulously.

“Well, duhh. The goddess paired you with three hot men. Why the hell are you punishing yourself by choosing just one? You are getting thrice the blessings that comes with having a mate”

“But what will people say? They already hate me. And you forget they are Alphas of different packs”

She leaned forward and held my cheeks.

“Aurora, you are meant to do a lot for us. This isn't just about you. Millions of lives have been lost over several generations because of a war we don't even know how it started. The moment you choose Kane, you set us right back in that loop. Men act irrationally when they are slighted.”

“Oh. I didn't think about it that way, I'm sorry for my selfishness” I replied, suddenly feeling the heavy weight settle on my shoulders.

I remembered when I was in that safehouse with so many people who had lost their loved ones and it was as a result of the back and forth attacks between these packs. They could be so powerful yet they waste their resources tearing each other down.

“I'm not saying this to make you feel pressured to make a choice. I'm just saying that if there's any part of you that wants them all, don't resist it. We are going to be very happy about it. We are also wolves, not just humans. Some rules don't apply to us. Now eat up, you look like you haven't eaten in weeks. You actually haven't” she winked as she got up and left me to my thoughts.

Thoughts that were entering murky waters. The idea of the three of them reacting to my interaction with Axel earlier came to my mind. I've never had sex with anyone before, so the idea of three at once was scary. I also didn't see how that was going to fare in the long run, except I was some strong species, I would always be too tired and one of two of us would be unsatisfied. Definitely a recipe for disaster.

But it wasn't just about the sex, it was the concept of three powerful men telling me what to do, controlling my every movement. That was a more scary thought. They are nice and all but I didn't really know them very well. I also didn't know myself properly outside of the influence of my father and I feared they would not let me be myself. I was scared of being overwhelmed by their intensity as well.

But what was on the line was the lives of many people which my actions would affect.

If I went with Kane, Axel would be slighted and once he lost his connection to me, I was very sure he would encourage more attacks on Kane's pack for revenge and his brother won't be able to stop him.

If I decide to stay with Axel, Kane would definitely suspect foul play and will be here with his army by dawn the next day. Like Juno said, this was more than me.

It was all or nothing.